Silliebillie

这一天，我哭了

2012-01-04T09:45:00.001+08:00

这一天，我哭了。曾对自己许下承诺，不糟蹋眼泪、不随意落泪；但，我哭了。

我们认识的太迟：彼此都有了伤疤；
我们恋爱的太快：还没了解对方；
我们太多的执着：不想踏出安全地带。

一句＂你要学会等我＂让我没了安全感、也让我的心紧紧的抽痛。
天知我虽然嘴硬说从不等人，却又为了哪个他放下原则，傻傻等待。

＂我等你＂胜于＂我爱你＂。
这是一个无条件的付出，一个等待着发光的希望。我的害怕是看着希望变成绝望。

2011-12-23T00:28:00.002+08:00

Well there isn't any more eps of the story... Because I wasn't continuing on it.

And I don't think I intend to. Well, it was kinda getting a little pointless and I have lost interest in it. Hmms.

I thought u shall do just .. A little reflection .. Before I fall asleep? I do hope I finish it before I zonk out!!

The Little things that make me H.A.P.P.Y!!

1) the joy of stepping into a warm shower.
There's nothing like a warm shower to get off my weariness, cranky moods or even just to get squeaky clean. I love my showers, the amazing sweet scents of my bath gels from The Body Shop, and the clean, soft and utterly warm feeling after each bath. I like to think that showers can resolve all issues. Haha!

2) waking up fully recharged
Ever felt the contented sigh escape as you slowly rouse awake? That's why your mind and body have completely taken sufficient rest. And most people don't sleep well, either from insomnia, stress, or just sleeping late! I like to indulge in early nights sometimes, just to spoil myself and spend some me-time with a good novel till I doze off. These are usually Fridays or Saturdays, so that I may sleep in if i read till too late!

3) the Little Surprises in life!
My honey, Zhiyu, and Dodo babe are the best at this. Seriously hands down. I would love to have them for my boyfriend! Sometimes it's really not the price of the item that counts. It's the thought. Even a simple handwritten card that came in the mail will melt me and make me go ... "Awwws..!!" and I like to keep the cards everywhere. The smaller ones in my wallet and pouches, and the slightly larger ones in my planners. What good are words of encouragement if they are kept in dusty shoe cases? I don't believe in that, and this works for me! When I feel down or get stressed at work, the little postcards will cheer me up and bring forth memories!

Oh Dear, I seem to be getting more energized. Hmmm. Goodnight!

2011-12-18T14:50:00.000+08:00

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Laverne came out with a tray of food, some tuna, ham and egg sandwiches, and cut fruits.

“Do you still love him?”

Laverne’s eyes widened, and her fork with a piece of apple froze midway in the air. She swallowed hard, and popped in the apple anyway.

“What is love? An exchange of feelings? Or a can of feelings, one with expiry dates?” She shook her head. “No, no expiry dates, you don’t even know when it expires.”

Laverne looked at the pile of sorted letters, and started slicing the envelopes open. She frowned at an unfamiliar envelope, and turned it over. Pulling out a nicely embossed card, she flipped it open, and saw the words:

[i]You are cordially invited to witness the marriage of Greg and Joel. [/i]

Zach frowned at the silence, and snatched the card out of her hands. He tossed the card carelessly on the couch, and pulled Laverne to her feet.

“So, do you still love him?”

“I don’t know. I shouldn’t. I couldn’t.”

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2011-12-17T14:48:00.000+08:00

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Laverne returned to her kitchen, grumbling to herself under her breath.

“I can hear you girl, I know you love my presence here.”

Laverne rolled her eyes in exasperation. “Could guys get any more thick-headed?” She thought.

“Sandwich for you?” She asked.

“Only if it’s made by you.”

“Well, you don’t see anyone else in my house do you?”

“Boy, I do love the feisty spirit in the early morning!” He settled down, relaxed, on her soft couch. “Get me some good juice to go along!”

As Laverne busied herself in the kitchen, Zach eyed the pile of letters on top of the coffee table.

“Seriously, don’t you read mails?”

“You could pay the bills for me if it bothers you seeing them.”

He chuckled to himself, and started sorting out the letters, separating bill-alike envelopes from personal mail. And there, was an envelope, similar to the one in his jacket, in the middle on the stack.

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2011-12-16T11:57:00.000+08:00

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The next morning, Laverne poured herself some cereal and sprinkled fruits and nuts on top. The bowl looked almost too happy, with the colours of the dried chunks of fruits and nuts. She was halfway through her breakfast when the doorbell rang.

Laverne peeked through the peephole warily, and saw Zach at the door.

“Should I pretend I am not in? Hmm.. “

Zach rung the bell again, jabbing at it furiously. Then he took a step back and gave his lop-sided smile, looking straight into the peephole.

Laverne sighed, and opened the door slightly. “What do you want?”

He pushed the door ajar, and held Laverne by the waist, when she tumbled backwards.

“Don’t want you landing on your face again. I want you.”

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2011-12-15T11:57:00.000+08:00

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As the moon hung up high, casting long shadows, Laverne slipped out of bed and took her bundle of belongings she has quietly prepared in the day. She had packed in some food, and clutched her phone tightly, almost as if it was her safety charm.

As she tiptoed past the study room, she paused for a while, and looked at the sleeping man at the table. She picked up a throw from the couch, and draped it over Zach’s shoulders gently.

Laverne then left the room, and glanced back once more, to look at Zach, the new friend that had held her whilst she felt abandoned. She left the house, and hurried down the path, ignoring random cars that hooted at her.

At last, she reached the main road. She hailed down a cab, and got back home, safely.

Letters were overflowing in her mailbox, and she paid no heed to them. Bills could wait, she decided. A B5-sized envelope peeked from the stack of letters. She turned on her laptop, and looked at the loving photo on the screen. She frowned, and changed it to black wallpaper. Logging in to her email, and social sites, she browsed through the dozens of unread mails and notifications, and decided to sweep all emails from Greg into a locked folder.

Weary, she slumped into her soft bed, and let the soft duvet envelope her into a deep slumber.

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2011-12-14T11:44:00.000+08:00

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As Laverne got better under the patient care of the maids and the wary eyes of Zach, she started wandering about the large house. She found her favourite relaxing spot, under the shade of a large apple tree. She would throw on a long flowy dress, and grab a novel from the shelves of the study room. Then she would remove her slippers, and settle down on the soft grass, and begin her reading. Laverne would always twirl her long hair into a bun, and slide in a pencil to hold it in place. And when tired, she would close her eyes for a quiet nap.

That was how Zach found her, cuddled up with a book, legs tucked in, and skirts covering her ankles. He settled down gently beside her, careful not to wake her, and tugged out the pencil in her hair. He watched her hair unwind slightly, and pulled her into his lap. Brushing her hair slightly, he thought of the conversation he had with Greg earlier in the day, and the wedding invitation card that was in his coat.

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2011-12-13T11:42:00.000+08:00

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Sometimes it really seemed like ‘happiness’ is a wish too difficult to fulfill. When Laverne finally woke, she found Zach nodding off to sleep at her side. She had felt his care and concern these couple of days, as she drifted in and out of consciousness. She could not comprehend why, for she must have disrupted his life and caused much trouble. She tried to sit up, and winced at the sharp ache running down her spine.

Zach stirred awake and roared a loud yawn. Laverne blinked and stared at him, as his chest puffed up while he ruffled his hair. Then she turned away, blushing, when he looked into her eyes, catching her stare.

Laverne bit her lips nervously, waiting for him to make the first speech.

“Erm…”

“Hey..”

The both of them started talking at the same time.

“You go ahead .. “ she muttered under her breath.

“Sighs, don’t get dramatic. What’s up?”

“Sorry for waking you up.” She continued.

“Well, damage done, and you don’t seem very apologetic anyway.”

“But… “

“So what prompted you to jump off my balcony? Have you grown wings I couldn’t see?”

Laverne stared and frowned at his words, pouting slightly.

“I don’t have wings!”She retorted.

He leaned close in, inches away from her face, and brushed away a stray strand of hair.

“But angel, you tried flying, and landed on my feet.”

The both of them started chatting idly, and Laverne relaxed visibly. Zach was an easy-going man, mildly sarcastic, and yet humorous in his own way. Laverne surprised him with her candor, as she tried finding out as much information as she could. A plan started forming in her head.

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2011-12-12T12:05:00.000+08:00

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Shaking in fury, Zach paced the corridor outside Laverne’s room. Laverne’s room, he kind of liked the sound of it. She now belonged to him. But for no sense he could think of, he could not quite comprehend the reason for his obsession of this girl.

He first saw her on the beach, seated on a large rock with Greg, sharing a coat, and whispering sweet nothings under the starry sky. He himself had another girl with him, but he couldn’t help eyeing Laverne from afar. Her sweet smile, lit up her face, and made the shining stars seem pale in comparison. From time to time, her head will dip shyly, as Greg whispered into her ear.

Zach liked the pearl ear-studs she wore on each of her ear, that night. That was the way he remembered her as, simple and adorable.

He drove past a cafeteria some couple of weeks ago, and saw her again, chatting away happily with a girl friend, over a cup of pink drink. That sugary stuff that girls loved, he could not understand. But there was her, a more casual and at-ease self, decked in a simple white top with lace details, brushing a piece of hair away from her face, and tucking it neatly behind her ear. This time, he saw a simple heart-shaped diamante stud. He recognized her by her smile, the same that seemed to light up his heart.

When Bull, the guys all call him that, not just for his size, but more for his temper, came stomping through his hallway one day, Zach brushed him aside. It wasn’t the first time a girl left him for another. Yet when Andi dragged him to the court, where Bull had taken Greg to, Zach regretted not getting there earlier. There was his angel, on the floor, beneath Bull.

Zach punched the wall, cursing under his breath. Bull scared her. And above all, that bastard broke her heart.

He hated himself, for not coming in earlier, and for not watching her. Having found her in a crumpled mess at the front porch was not something he wanted to see.

“That old man is certainly taking a long time examining her. Is he done or not?” he bellowed.

Just in time, the doctor came out of her room, the nurse following behind with a tray full of blood-soaked cotton wads.

“She’s weak now, but she will get better. Don’t let her get up, she dislocated her shoulder and hips. She will be in terrible pain, give her a shot if she needs it.” The doctor ranted, and prepared some needles and morphine shots.

Zach paid little attention to him, upon the assurance of “getting better”, he rushed into the room, and sat beside Laverne, watching her chest rise and fall steadily with each breath.

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2011-12-09T12:04:00.000+08:00

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Joel stood at the foot of the bed, arms folded, and pouted. “What are we going to do now Greg? You said you would bring me far away and buy a new house for us.”

Greg frowned, deep in faraway thoughts, paid no heeds to the sulking girl. He grunted and glared at Joel when she kicked him on his shin. “What the ..?”

“That woman is history. Do you understand that? H-I-S-T-O-R-Y!! You said love with her was BLAND. Come on. Don’t tell me you miss that woman.”

He grabbed her tightly on her arms, and shook her fiercely. “Don’t you dare speak of her in this manner! She is forever my angel.” He let go of her and threw her onto the bed. “And this is where you belong.”

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2011-12-08T12:04:00.000+08:00

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Zach came into her view, gradually. He cupped her face between an open palm, and helped her up into a sitting position, with a hand beneath her nape. Laverne, tried to speak, and a hoarse voice whimpered through her dry and sore throat. A cup was placed at her lips, and she sipped the sweet honey lemon drink, letting the cool liquid slip down the burning throat.

“What happened? Where am I? Why am I here?” She mumbled, gathering sheets around her. She flustered about, attempting to get off the bed. She fell off the bed in a heap, and burst out into tears. “What’s wrong with me? I have never been this feeble.”

Zach lifted her back up onto the bed, and tucked her in. Bemusedly, he said, “Well, you have been running high fever for a good three days. Greg, your traitorous boyfriend has since left with Jolyn.”

It all came back to her. The sweet memories, never forgotten, were now laced with dark sadness. She watched her tears fall onto her hand, and recalled the day when they shared a jacket in the cold chill.

“I am not certain why I am keeping you here, girl. Stop crying before I kick you out of my house.” Zach interrupted her thoughts.

“Brother,” Andi said, pushing a bowl of porridge before Laverne. “Get out of my way, and let the poor dear get some food.”

She settled down beside Zach, and lifted a spoonful before Laverne. Laverne turned away, uninterested.

“You know what? I think you should finish every drop of this food, get your energy back, and recover as fast as you could. Only then you will be able to find the revenge you need.” Andi lamented.

Laverne shut her eyes, and pretended to sleep.

“Fine. I am out of here.” Andi placed the porridge by her bedside, and stormed out of the room. Zach shook his head and left subsequently, leaving Laverne to howl and wail.

Finally spent, she slid open the door, and walked out to the balcony. She climbed over the ledge, and leapt off.

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2011-12-07T12:04:00.000+08:00

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Laverne slept fitfully, tossing and turning in the soft duvet, unable to escape from the torturous grips of nightmares. She felt like trapped in the centre of strong burning flames. She saw the beautiful girl in the arms of Greg, and the couple laughed away at some private jokes. The flames consumed her as she watched him meet her eyes, and lower down to kiss the girl in his arms.

“No, Greg, no!” Laverne yelled, grabbing a fistful of duvet beneath her. Beads of perspiration formed above her brows, and tears streamed down her face. “Don’t leave me alone!”

“Hush, you are fine.” A masculine voice interrupted. A cool damp cloth was laid over her forehead, and Laverne felt the flames diminishing a little. She felt herself being pulled out of the flames by a strong hand. The fingers are loosening her grip on the duvet, holding her small cold hand in the warm palm. “Open your eyes, and look at me. You are not alone.”

Frowning, Laverne tried opening her eyes, and squinted at the faint shadows in front of her. There were several people. She shook her head to clear the fuzz, and winced at the pounding in her head.

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2011-12-06T12:03:00.000+08:00

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Zach picked up a wooden stick from the floor, patting down on his palm. Walking over to Greg, Zach lifted his chin up with the stick. He examined Greg closely, and smirked, “Not much of a looker after the hits! So, spill. What’s the story?”

Greg turned away and spat on the floor, close to Zach. “Look, I don’t care what you do to me, but leave Laverne alone!”

“Laverne?” Zach turned and looked at her, “That’s the right name for the angel. Look, we didn’t hurt her, not as much as you did anyway. She’s mine now. That’s the price.”

Laverne walked over and looked into the eyes of Greg, “Tell me. Why? Was she prettier? Was she better? Did she love you as much as I did?” Her voice dropped to a whisper, and her lips trembled, “I loved you Greg, I loved you.”

Strong arms hugged around her, catching her before she fell to the floor, as darkness engulfed her.

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2011-12-05T12:03:00.000+08:00

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Laverne shrieked, “What do you think you are doing? Get off of me! You said you won’t hurt me!”

“That’s true, little angel, but I did say I would get back what belongs to me!” He slid the flat blade across her cheek, and trailed it down her, leaving a thin streak of redness on her neck. “You know what babe, no man ever dared spare a look at my girl. Your pretty boy has got to pay a price,” he sneered meanly, “And the price shall be YOU.”

The blade continued its path down her blouse, snapping buttons on its way. Laverne struggled futilely, and tears streamed unheeded, down her face. He gripped her face roughly, and leaned in close. Laverne tried not to gag at the odor of his breath, as he rained kisses all over her.

“Get off her.” A masculine voice called out. The man halted, and looked towards the shadow at the door.

Within seconds, the shadow leapt in and threw the man off Laverne. He dropped his coat and wrapped around Laverne, picking her up gently in his arms.

“Boss, no, that sick boy Greg stole my girl! I was just paying him back!”

“Oh come on, you have so many girls.” A girl sauntered in, and peered in on Laverne, “Hi there, I am Andi. That’s our big brother, Zach, holding you.”

Andi continued, “I see your taste hasn’t changed much, still attracted to sluts that run to nerdy guys after hanging out with you for a while? Duh, what’s in you that’s charming anyway?”

“That’s enough Andi,” Zach said, quietly. He lowered Laverne on to her feet, “Can you stand by yourself?” Laverne nodded. Zach frowned, and brushed away the tears on her cheek, growling slightly when she backed away from him.

“Well, a price does have to be paid,” Zach started.

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2011-12-02T12:02:00.001+08:00

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She trusted him, and gave him all. A fool, she felt she was, when she saw the intimacy of them both in the photos. Still, she gave him the benefit of doubt. Perhaps, the pictures were technically edited. Perhaps, they were coerced into some scam.

Laverne gripped the knife and got to her feet. She scanned the room and her surroundings warily. Stumbling before the girl, she asked, “Who are you? Why are you in the photos with my boyfriend..?”
Without waiting for an answer, she stood before him and asked again, “Why Greg? What happened?”

He mumbled, “Sorry baby, it was love at first sight.” He yelped as another lash struck onto him.

“Love? What right have you got to talk about loving my girl?” the gruff man lashed and spit at him.

Laverne fell to the floor. She reminisced about the memories they once shared. The images blurred in her tear-filled eyes. The knife dropped from her loosened grip and she ran her fingers over the cold blade.

Suddenly, the gruff man rushed towards her and fell on top of her. He took the knife and raised it on top of her.

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2011-12-02T12:02:00.000+08:00

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The gruff, meanest looking man bent down low before Laverne, sneering at her. “That’s your boyfriend? Bad taste girl!” His friends laughed, and the tattooed man flung another punch at her love. Laverne shook her head frantically and cried hard.

She winced as the gruff man pulled her head backward and pulled her into his arms. “Don’t worry girl, we won’t hurt you,” he growled, “We would only take back what is rightfully ours.”

He threw a stack of pictures at Laverne and photos of obscenity spread before her. The girl and her love were in every of the photo. Laverne struggled out of his grasp and picked the stack of photos up. She shook her head in disbelief as she browsed through them, and tears welled up once more.
“What are these pictures all about? Greg!! What have you done?” she whispered in pain.

Laverne tore the pictures frantically, trying to shred the incidents into pieces. She could literally feel the wrench on her heart. The shredding seemed to tear herself apart instead.

She spotted the knife lying a couple of feet away. Scrambling towards the knife, she shook, as she grasped it tightly.

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2011-12-01T12:01:00.000+08:00

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A splash of ice cold water hit her face, and she felt the throbbing aches around her sides, where a hard-booted foot kicked her repeatedly.

“Wake up girl! Look what we have for you!!” a gruff voice called out, as he splashed another pail of water onto her.

She groaned and stirred awake, trying to roll onto her good side, and avoid the raining hits. A strong hand fisted around her hair, pulling her upright. She winced and tried opening her eyes, but found herself blindfolded. Tears rolled down her face and soaked the cloth, as she tried struggling against the strong bonds, only finding her efforts futile.

“Leave her alone!!” Laverne heard a familiar voice calling out. She tried responding, but that came out as muffled groans instead.

A cold blade flattened at her cheek, and she shuddered at the sudden chill. Laverne held her breath, not daring to move, as the cutter slid up her cheek. The cloth hissed as the blade sliced through in a swift stroke, falling to the ground in two parts.

As her eyes adjusted to the sudden brightness, she saw a sexy feminine silhouette, decked in a short tight black dress. Black streaks of tears ran paths down her cheeks, as she sobbed in her bonds. The girl struggled and looked pleadingly at the built tattooed man.

Laverne could barely comprehend the situation, till she saw him, the love of her life, hanging down from the ceiling by his bound arms. He had bruises all over him, and long red welts could be seen over his chest and arms. He had clearly been tortured.

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2011-12-01T11:58:00.004+08:00

just a quick updates of what I have been up to lately, apart from my little story I have been writing. :)

1) Work, work, and more work!

Yes, typically a whole day of 8 hours, 5 days a week, and even more thinking even after I leave office.. Be it after work or on weekends.

2) Heading out with girl friends, guy friends and random friends!

Had some coffee dates with new friends, some catching up with old friends, a crazy funny movie - 那年我们一起追过的女孩 with my best friends, a whole day of glorious food, teasing fun & camwhoring with my girlfriends. best times spent, always.

3) Family love.

One of the reasons why I love this year so much, is the stronger family bond that I enjoyed lately. Unexplainable, but it feels mad awesome when I know I can look forward to Fridays when my brother books out of camp, and weekends when we can have family dinners or movies.

It certainly took alot of effort and time to coordinate everyone and to really make things happened. Grumbled alot, but it's worth it. Love my family.

4) Indulging in the festive season!

I am loving starbucks seasonal coffee. Had my first peppermint mocha last year, and i L.O.V.E it. I simply adore it.

I am a peppermint addict. I love peppermint dark chocolate, and I love peppermint candies, and I love peppermint teas.

And I love mocha. Crazy sinful I know, its chocolate with coffee!

And imagine the perfect combination. its peppermint and chocolate and coffee! The best mixture ever. and if you can bear the extra calories, top up the whip-cream and the chocolate fudge syrup. Best treat in the recent chilly weathers. I like them hot.

that's about it!

Oh, I joined in Nadnut's competition for the giveaway: lancome tresor midnight rose fragrance, and I entered the below for the competition:

Trésor Midnight Rose, a feminine fragrance with different scent notes.
Intriguing as romance is, the scent brings forth a hint of mischief in the lady,
decked in purple, all mysterious and alluring.

And totally forgot to check back on it, since I think I entered the competition a while ago? Liked the entry I submitted though, as shown above, and I think I outdid myself.

It's truly a blessed gifted magical season! I won the perfume, and was informed yesterday. Didn't have time to go through my email, and was truly pleased that my entry got selected!

Now I shall wait for the gift collection, and I shall do a review on it.

Wanted to pick that up for my Christmas gift, and I guess, I got it! Thanks to Nadnut and Lancome for the gift!

That's that! A pretty long entry, and I shall see if I can post up pictures in between so that it doesnt' get too long-winded to read.

I am always long-winded

Oh by the way, the story will be updated everyday, and has been scheduled to update. Don't worry that you will be left hanging when I am busy! Just wait for the next weekday, no updates on weekends though.

-xoxo!

2011-11-30T11:57:00.000+08:00

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The next day, a bouquet of flowers was delivered to her office. She took the flowers from the receptionist, and ignored the excited murmurs and discussions. Laverne toyed with the soft petal of the tinted pink rose, and picked out the card.

“Have you lost your smile? Promise me that you would keep smiling the way I loved you to.” Signed, your love.

Tears welled up, threatening to fall once again. She smiled, clutching the flowers tightly, savoring the sweet scents.

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Putting on her favourite pair of tracks, and running sneakers, she popped on her headphones and blasted music whilst hitting the hard concrete grounds. She ran hard and fast, keeping her breathing steady, almost in sync with the beats of the fast music.
The loud music drowned the pounding steps closing in behind her. A strong arm sneaked around her waist and another covered a soaked cloth over a mouth.

“What? Who…” she mumbled, struggling before crumbling to the ground.

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2011-11-29T11:53:00.000+08:00

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“Look baby, I know it has been difficult on you, but I have been recommended for a promotion lately, and you know how stiff the competition is.”

“Ya.”

“No, honey, you need to understand this. It’s the breakthrough I have been waiting for. This is all for our future!”

“Yupp.” She swallowed hard, forcing down the welling lump of disappointment.

“Think about the condominium we saw the other evening. That would be ours in 3 years! Would you wait for me while I complete this project?”

“Sure, don’t forget your dinner.”

“I know you are the understanding girlfriend I ever had. Thank you my dear. Look…”

She interrupted, “I am tired. Goodnight.”

Laverne stared at the spread of food ahead of her, lit the tall candles and watched the flames flicker in the dark.

Softly, she whispered, “Happy Birthday, Laverne. Happy Birthday to me…” and allowed her tears to flow freely, hitting softly on the table.

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2011-11-28T11:52:00.001+08:00

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As weeks passed, the initial sweetness was gradually losing from their relationship. Work and life caught up, he said. Messages and dates lessened between them and routine settled in. Morning greetings, lunch reminders, night wishes. She took all of that in, after all, he was a busy man and she had a life to lead too. Still, she missed the initial cuddly feeling.

Picking up the pen he gifted to her, she wrote a letter, hesitating slightly, and hastily swiped off the tear that had fallen. Swallowing hard, she slowed her breathing and muttered, “I am no crybaby. And this is certainly nothing to cry about.” She finished the letter and placed it in a sealed envelope, between the pages of a thick book.

Laverne texted him, “Free for dinner tonight? How about trying out my cooking?

She busied herself, lugging back bags of groceries and ingredients for the dinner. She turned up the music, chopping up the onions and shrooms, and caramelizing them in some heated butter. Trying hard to ignore her phone, she left it on the dining table and continued preparing dinner. She grilled some steak and left the sauce in the pan, ready to be poured over the meat once he arrives. She watched the soup carefully, determined not to burn any, and stirred in the caramelized mixture into the chowder.

Finally ready, she set the table, and sat down, taking a deep breath before picking up her phone.

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“Hey baby…”

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2011-11-25T11:51:00.000+08:00

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The glow radiating from Laverne was not lost amongst her friends, families and colleagues. All were anxious to know updates of her relationship status. She basked in the soft fuzzy feeling from within, and was certain something magical had to be happening around her.

“Nutty Berry drink for me,” she placed her orders with the waitress.

“Such a sweet drink? I thought you had always favored bitter coffee!” her close friend, Joelle, exclaimed, “Sighs, the things love does to a person.”

Laverne smiled nonchalantly, shrugged, and pouted, “Well people do change, all the time too!”

The two girls sipped their drinks and chatted away, the sweet sounds from their laughter drawing curious looks from passers-by.

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2011-11-24T11:51:00.000+08:00

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Romance is sweet, at least it is when it first started out. They held hands and chatted under the starry skies, looking far out at the sea before them. The twinkling stars and whisperings of the crickets were lost to the young lovebirds though, as they held gazes.

The chill settled in as the night deepens. She shudders a little and rubs down her arms, attempting to chase away the chill.

“Feeling cold?” He removed his blazer and placed it around her shoulders, wrapping her tightly. The musky scent of his cologne lingered in the warmth radiating from the jacket, enveloping her.

She hesitated, “But you would be cold then.”

An arm smoothed over her back, beneath the draping jacket, and pulling her closer to him. He leaned over her shoulder, hugging her around the waist. He blew warm air on the soft spot behind her ear and whispered, “Now, I won’t be cold.” Brushing hair away from her nape, he settled against her neck and closed his eyes, inhaling the sweet floral scent.

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Love Me... Not.

2011-11-23T11:50:00.001+08:00

[i] All stories are a work of fiction. The characters do not exist, except in the mind of the author. Any resemblance to persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental.[/i]

It is funny how people always say, “Look upwards to the ceiling when you are about to cry, and the tears wouldn’t fall.” She tried, and decided they lied. The welled up tears filled the eyes, as she reminisced on the last hug he gave to her.

Dramas, they seem to be a reflection of how life truly is, don’t they? Who would have thought that simplicity would be the most challenging to achieve? A reason to smile was all she wanted now.

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“Laverne! All dressed up for what event tonight?” A colleague teased, as he walked past her seat to his.

“LOL! No where!” Laverne smiled, chuckling to herself whilst texting away furiously.

Time has never passed so slowly, as she counted each minute and second to the end of work. Some say it is love, when the heart skips a beat at the sight of his text message, and blushes just at the thought of the times spent together.

The phone vibrated once again. “Hey sweetie, ready for our date tonight?” he asked.

“Hmmm, date? Where are we going?” she replied, “are dress and heels fine for the location?”

“Don’t worry about the attire. I would carry you when you get tired.”

“Nah, you wouldn’t. An elephant would weigh you down!”

“Try me.”
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Story series!

2011-11-23T11:46:00.003+08:00

Haven't updated for a really long time, but I have been working on a story, so I might just as well post this up here, for your reading pleasure. have already pre-scheduled my episodes update, so stay tuned. :)

2011-07-21T10:44:00.006+08:00

Life's like a movie, you need some popcorn to go along with it..

These 4 months has really been like a movie.
I realised how dramatic my life is whenever I am in a relationship.
I hate all that drama.

And just like a kiwi, it's been sweet and sour..

Went to a career seminar somewhere 2 weeks ago, and a few stories struck me.

Ever heard of how monkeys are caught?

It's simple.
Put a banana in a narrow-necked jar.

The monkey will reach for the banana in the jar, and grasp the banana tightly.
He would be trapped, for the fist would never make its way out of the narrow neck.

I felt like a monkey in the relationship, probably in more than one ways.

Love and relationship was the banana, the treat.
I had gripped it tightly, and refused to let go of it.
Was it pride? Or was it mere stubbornness. Perhaps it was greed.

I felt caged, trapped in the jar, unable to breathe, unhappy.

And somewhere last week, it suddenly struck me.
Look, I don't need that treat. Letting go of it, gave me space to wriggle my fingers.
it allowed me to slip my hand out and be free once more.

and i felt truly happy.

And i felt silly afterwards. What kind of obstinance was that?
There was no value in it, no happiness.
I can be rather ridiculous at times.

Moving on already!

Hmm. On to happier note,
I love snacking. And I need to do something about my weight.

got a huge load of yummy goodies from NTUC:

Okay, not exactly huge, but this can last me for a work week.
And they are healthy too!

And I desperately need to update my make up..
as in, get a new make up pouch, throw out a couple of items, and get new ones!

This pouch caught my eye at NTUC.

It came along with the Elle magazine, some combi package..

I figured, since I need some light reading materials
(I am usually into psychothriller books) .. and I need a new pouch...
Why not?! Turns out I love the styles in the magazine.

My honey is right. My styles have changed so drastically over the 3 years.
And it's still changing. Or perhaps I wouldn't call it a 'style' yet,
But I am working on my taste and preferences!

And to top the day off nicely,
I received freebies from Maybelline!
Thank you Maybelline!

OMG. This is the CUTEST mascara EVER.

It's hello kitty! and it's pink.
I don't like metallic very much, but the packaging is really awesome.

the mascara came together with a fun glitter liner..
which i am not certain if i will ever use it.

I am kinda practical when it comes to eyeliners, and it's brown for work and casual days,
and black for going out days.
Not certain if i would use this, but we shall see!

Oh, and I do so need to change my blusher.
Can't decide between M.A.C and benefit and Nars.
Tsk.

hmm, I shall get back to working on payroll,
The favourite part of my job!
and meanwhile, cheers to happiness ;D

psst, that's me in hawaii theme for company event

till then!

xoxo

2011-04-16T16:18:00.003+08:00

sometime, somehow...
girls would have thought of their ideal soul mate.

understanding, caring, responsible..
y'know, the normal descriptive words.

and it struck me hard, real hard today.

have been sick since Wed, and felt really horrible yesterday.
Couldn't take MC, cos i had 2 interviews,
potential candidates,
and a Monthly Meeting to run.

and it is especially when i am sick,
feeling temperamental, emotional and unreasonable,
that i really wanted some words of coaxing and understanding.

words like...
"have u taken medicine.. gone to doctor..? Take mc!"
morning greetings like...
"are u feeling better..?"
or night greetings like..
"rest early and don't kick the blanket."

maybe, just maybe,
i had been asking too much.

Last week, i did a "Solemnly Swear" vow in my diary.

it was..

I solemnly swear to skip contact lens for a week..

and

I solemnly swear to let my nails rest for a week.

did them both, and i m mad proud of myself.

and for this week, it shall be:

I solemnly swear to stop asking him out for a week.

let's see if i can keep to that!

2011-04-10T12:59:00.003+08:00

Guess what's in it:

For ___, from ___.

Starting to do some "solemnly swear" vows!

happy girl!

2011-03-30T10:17:00.004+08:00

i m a happy girl today

*BIG GRINS*

msged this to my fav gfs:
there's something about a smartly-dressed gentleman that makes my heart skips a beat..
well-fitted denim jacket worn over a casual tee,
wash-out bootcut jeans paired with brown hard shoes.

Well-chosen spectacles framing a set of nice facial features,
topped off with a boyish cute haircut.

Sighs, eye-candy rocks my day!!!

whee, now, i m in an awesome mood.
plus..today, i can write cheques for the month of March!

that's money for me.. $$$ *Shingshing*
and money for my lovely colleagues $$$*Shingshingshing*!

Ps, i love my colleagues, just not the ~~management.~~ :D

我要快樂

2011-03-27T13:05:00.003+08:00

我要快樂 - 張惠妹

把從前想了一遍
謝謝了傷我的人
想做樂觀的人每種雨聲聽了都不冷
我並不是天生愛寂寞卻比任何人都多
就算把世界給我我還是一無所有
我要快樂我要能睡的安穩
有些人不抱了才溫暖離開了才不恨我早應該割捨
我要快樂哪怕笑的再大聲
心不是熱的全都是假的
我的決定是對的

我要快樂 ... 你能带给我，我要的快樂吗？

2011-03-22T22:11:00.002+08:00

saw this on fb just now... shall highlight the important sentences.

（1）永远不要为了一个不爱你的男人伤心哭泣。

（2）有时间学学电脑，别除了QQ以外什么都不懂。

（3）书架里别只摆言情和网络小说，你需要看点别的。

（4）不要相信男人寂寞时的表白。

（5）不要答应男人临时的约会。

（6）不要让别人安排你的计划表。

（7）应该有自己的兴趣并从中获得快乐。

（8）你值得被一个好男人的追求。

（9）不帅又没钱的男人不一定不花心。

（10）不要相信男人床上的誓言。

（11）除了英语以外再学一门外语。

（12）会一样乐器，或者会演奏一首曲子，一首就好。

（13）可以歌喉不好但一定要练一首拿手歌，不然被逼无奈时会很尴尬。

（14）如果可以学跳一种舞蹈。

（15）多读书，博而有专。

（16）看世界经典电影。

（17）知道荣格，黑格尔，萨特等，但不要别人一说话就插嘴：“你说的不对，谁谁谁说过…”，很讨厌。

（18）读过《红楼梦》。

（19）别太胖。(orh...)

（20）知道基本的常识知识。

（21）会背诵自己喜欢的诗歌。

（22）少喝可乐及一切碳酸饮料。

（23）偶尔喝些红酒。

（24）能不抽烟就别抽烟——几年后会让你看上去比你的同龄朋友老好几岁，虽然有的女人抽烟时很迷人。

（25）多喝水多吃水果。

（26）相信爱情，别相信偶像剧。

（27）人都要长大且成熟，别总一开口就：“我们女孩子…”

（28）奥黛丽赫本的胸部也会下垂，请正确看待衰老。

（29）大学毕业后不要再梳两条小辫子。

（30）装清纯装可爱比不清纯不可爱本身更要命。

（31）这世上多么不要脸的人都有，你活该被气死——谁让你爱生气呢！

（32）不要对衣着过时样貌平平的人满脸傲气。

（33）白羊人发脾气时你最好闭嘴。

（34）看起来老实的金牛人其实很好色。

（35）双子人会为了赌局而追你。

（36）巨蟹人其实没传说中那么恋家，而且很花心。

（37）狮子人的面子比你更重要。

（38）不要和处女座的人做情人，最好连朋友都不要做，会被出卖！

（39）天枰人固执的厉害。

（40）天蝎人的占有欲比你想象的更可怕。

（41）射手人更爱自由，想让他爱你就少爱他一点。
(okay dear, i will remember this.)

（42）摩羯人不全是工作狂，他们浪漫起来很可爱。

（43）要给水瓶人足够多的时间去交友，但要留意他身边有没有很优秀的女生——你知道瓶子喜欢从友情发展爱情吧！

（44）一脸纯真双鱼座人很会撒谎。

（45）可以看看星座，但不要太相信，否则会吃亏。

（46）少看八卦杂志。

（47）不要让一些三八影响你的心情，除非你****。

（48）不要去探听别人的隐私，任何方面的。

（49）不要和跟你说别人坏话的人交朋友。

（50）一个人最大的悲哀就是不愿意当自己。

（51）改变体重没那么难，只要有恒心。

（52）要对自己的外貌负责，别相信素面朝天才是美。

（53）别相信男友为了安慰你说的“我不在乎你的外表”之类的话。

（54）更别相信男友说的“我不在乎你是不是处女”之类的话。

（55）看美女是男人的权利，与你无关。同样，你完全有权力对着帅男流口水。
(aww, i love this sentence ) ^^

（56）没有不喜欢美女的男人，蝶恋花是真理。

（57）没有不花心的男人，但有有自制力的男人。

（58）一个秃头大肚160没钱的男人也不会降低对情人的要求。

（59）男人很少对自己的外貌自卑。

（60）男人最在乎自己的工作能力。

（61）张柏芝没做错什么。

（62）是秘密就不要随便跟别人说。

（63）过了25岁不要买地摊货。

（64）即使过了180也要学会穿高跟鞋。

（65）以纯棉内衣裤为主，蕾丝好看，但也会要你身体好看。

（66）露出半个屁股不自爱。

（67）性感不是一种装扮，而是一种气质。

（68）有颗不安定的心。

（69）林黛玉无法生存。

（70）别总以为自己是灰姑娘——灰姑娘常有而王子不常有。

（71）要学会适度虚伪。

（72）真诚不是大声指出别人的毛病。

（73）骂人不揭短。

（74）学会控制情绪，虽然这很难。

（75）学会忘记。

（76）不活在功劳簿上，但偶尔翻翻还是有好处的。

（77）有计划地旅行。

（78）经常学习新事物。插花，茶道，绘画，滑雪，潜水，烹饪… 都可以。

（79）不跟没上进心的人接触，会被同化！

（80）不要爱上已婚男人，除非你别有所图或一无所求。

（81）小气的男人不能要。

（82）长舌妇比乌鸦嘴更讨厌。

（83）要有>=3个知心朋友。

（84）不乱交友。

（85）爸妈永远是你最重要的人。

（86）相信我，子欲养而亲不待比失恋痛苦几百万倍。

（87）不追求完美。

（88）允许自己犯错，但同样的错误绝不犯两次。

（89）关注时尚。

（90）相信父母及好友的忠告。

（91）不给背叛过自己的男人机会，背叛就是背叛，没有任何借口。

（92）开灯没什么大不了的。

（93）爱自己的身体。

（94）必要场合化妆是礼貌。

（95）衣橱里要有一件温暖而柔软的羊毛衫。

（96）有一套名牌的小洋装。

（97）预备一件黑色的小礼服及搭配它的名牌高跟鞋，名牌手袋以及首饰。

（98）有一个足够大的行李箱，说走就走。

（99）有爱就有痛，但想爱就别怕这怕那。

（100）真正爱一个人就告诉他吧。

（101）恨一个人不需要理由，就像爱和不爱一个人都不需要理由一样，所以永远不要问分手的男人“你为什么不爱我”之类的话，恨他好了。

（102）走掉的男人和公车一样，追不上的。不过还好，都有下一班。

（103）如果对一个男人有意思，看他，但不要走过去，等他走过来，如果他不过来，你就走掉。

（104）吃早饭比化妆更重要。

（105）有条件请午睡。

（106）不要熬夜。

（107）青春只有一次。

（108）爱护自己的头发，皮肤，指甲（美甲是让自己心情愉快的事情，但不要常做，会致癌），牙齿。

（109）付出时不要要求回报，回报是意外收获。

（110）身上不要同时出现三种主色以上。

（111）劣质香水是用来喷厕所的，不要用来喷你自己。

（112）不同居，不想嫁给他除外。

（113）不要把你没有的东西（包括男人）想的太好。

（114）不要吃到撑。

（115）多亲近大自然。

（116）男人喝牛奶，女人喝豆浆。

（117）如果不够前卫，别跟比自己小太多的男人交往，岁月对男人的面子和女人的面子是不公平的。

（118）别太矫情，蟑螂吓不死你。

（119）挂全家福比挂分手男人的照片有意义的多。

（120）存钱。

（121）有目标才有动力。

（122）别相信才子佳人的故事，佳人也要有除了靠男人以外的生存本领。

（123）西方有谚语：不和戴眼镜的女人调情。

（124）女人的外貌很重要，超乎你的想象。

i find the following sentences super funny:

（102）走掉的男人和公车一样，追不上的。不过还好，都有下一班。
（111）劣质香水是用来喷厕所的，不要用来喷你自己。
（118）别太矫情，蟑螂吓不死你。

What do you think? :P

2011-03-21T22:58:00.002+08:00

it will only happen when i run out of hope to hold on dearly to.

becus every expectation brings forth...

disappointment.

徐若瑄-美人鱼

2011-03-20T11:02:00.002+08:00

我是一条没有人养的鱼
背着自由面无表情
彩色眼睛受伤的心
只有看到黑白的你
我像一条没有人养的鱼
我的悲伤你不在意
说过的话飘过脸颊
我无法挥去一切从新再来
舍不得我为什么说再见
能不能收回我说的每一句话
舍不得我为什么不忘记
做一条快乐美人鱼
你的温柔总是来了又去
我的孤单(不稀罕同情)
你的电话忍住不打
我不想变成习惯等你回来
舍不得我为什么说再见
能不能收回我说的每一句话
舍不得我为什么不忘记
做一条快乐美人鱼
舍不得我为什么说再见
能不能收回我说的每一句话
舍不得我为什么不忘记
做一条快乐美人鱼
游向幸福的大海里

don't ask me why i don't call u when i miss u..

你的电话忍住不打
我不想变成习惯等你回来

a Sense of Belonging.

2011-03-20T09:52:00.008+08:00

i hardly talk about the new relationship i have plunged into...
because as the term suggests "plunge", it's probably a thoughtless decision.
another spur of the moment decision.

have you ever thought of your perfect dream other half?

Till death do us part
Credits to dark-spider from DeviantART

I guess I have always been the dreamy princessy kind of girl, since young..
where my dream guy will come riding in a stounch dark stallion, and sweep me off my feet.

The Stallion
Credits to ~Ilyana88 from DeviantART

and as years pass, that dream became impossible.
i mean, we can't have a stallion galloping the streets of Orchard Road,
or along the roads of Hougang, can we?

And then there will be a rebellious age,
where some girls may have fallen for that school drop-out,
a quiet serious individual that has striking features..
always hanging around the school compound with his group of retarded friends.

but i never did.
cross my heart (and hope to die).
at my rebellious age,
i was still rather into martial arts,
(back then I was SLIM. slim like slim can be!)
and hated guys, and all the attention that guys get, and obviously don't deserve!
So, i never got along well with guys my age, and stubbornly swore that I will never date a guy my age!

in fact, i don't think i had thought of romance back then,
probably still in the ages of royalty.

anw, so as of the moment,
my dream guy... is a man with broad shoulders,
one that is incredibly sweet and thoughtful.
i guess, every girl has her moments,
and thus an understanding guy will hit the right soft spot.

he doesn't need to be rich, nor successful,
(hell, don't i know the price for success?)
but he needs to clearly know what he wants in life.
can't have a guy waiting for the moon to drop and cash to fall from the sky?

sometimes, i think there are some special moments i want to share with only my other half.
moments like strolling hand-in-hand on the beach,
enjoying the sea breeze and listening to the gentle waves crash onto the beach.
leaving 2 sets of footprints on the beach...

Beach
Credits to jkurl11 from DeviantART

or it could be just a lazy weekend at home,
where he could be catching up on his work, and i would be catching up on my reading.
i am an avid reader... and i just love reading in bed.

Reading Thursday
Credits to Lady-Tori from DeviantART

we could be baking, cooking,
whatever.
just spending you-and-me time in the kitchen,
kneading dough, making up mixtures,
creating lip smacking dishes.

and to sum all of that up...
what i want is just time.
time to spend together..
time that belongs solely to 2 people.

I guess...

a Sense of Belonging

is what i am looking for...

what about u? :)

2011-02-20T15:06:00.004+08:00

Lots of things have posted since i last posted on this blog..
thought i should head back to writing out my thoughts and feelings...
cos i seem to be a lot clear headed when i write.
not sure though, if i should blog in english or in mandarin...
or perhaps i should do a combination of both?
hmms.

in any case...here's a quick log of what happened so far!
Internship started in late Nov.. and 3 months went past in a blur..

Learnt lots of new things:
1) creating a montage

2) organising an annual dinner:
(got myself a LBD that i absolutely adore too!)

3) calculating payroll and doing CPF submission too

4) Creating advertisments and doing interviews...

apart from work.. I went out on many sinful dates with pretty girls..
Desserts from nydc!

Received a pretty camera for my 22nd birthday!
Haven't tried it out yet... not sure when i should..
probably for the thailand phuket trip, yes?

And then there was Chinese New Year..
the happiest time for singles! Angpows collection
*grins smugly*

sat at the back of daddy's lorry for both days of visiting..

and it's damn annoying.
my awful wind-blown hair!

made my hair all dry and frizzy...
tsk.

next post up soon! :p

hopefully i can get my blogging momentum back soon~

2010-11-22T17:49:00.002+08:00

was clearing up my laptop space when i saw this:

inventive... i think not.
Creative, maybe. i have the oddest thinking at times.
Demanding and assertive are definitely the right words to describe me.
and i m a perfectionist.
oh, a self-starter too!

anw, when project meetings get too long.....
.... and the boards are too clean .....
and u have a couple of markers at hand....

YOU DOODLE!

me drew this.
at least the shirt is cute. :)

azmira drew this. this is eleanor :)
the frog-cow-alien look alike

thought i would draw in a bf for the girl.
turns out it looks rather unisexual.
aites :D

of course we are doing projects.
whatever made u think we are not? o.o

2010-11-16T15:08:00.002+08:00

i swear that i have the oddest nightmares, ever.
can't remember most of it by now, but it was about me in a family with some children..
and i witnessed one of the maids murdering the 2 little babies.
she was trying to squeeze and push the babies through a very narrow stairway
so narrow that the babies got compressed and seriously hurt.
i kept signaling to the father, but he seemed oblivious to the damage, even though he was sitting right before the incident.

then a fire broke out and everyone was trying to rush out..
and i tried picking up the babies,
but the evil maid wrapped them up and threw them down the stairs.
horrified, i picked up a bundle, and the baby's head rolled out.

o.o

there, isn't that a totally odd nightmare.
jarred awake by my alarm just in time.
i don't think i wanna deal with a headless baby in my nightmare.

~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~

nightmares aside.. i m left with only a week of school term,
and it's internship next.
lots of mixed up feelings, especially since the class seems so much livelier now..
and it's the 2nd last week.
time seems to be really flying this sem...
abit too fast for my liking, now that we are settled down.

and i m finishing tuition with lav ..
last lesson this sunday
and finishing tuition with weitian too..
last lesson next friday

and that's that for tuition.
no more tuition for me, so i m only left with piano class with my neighbour..

needs to take a break and getaway from teaching for a while.
apart from the internship that will start really soon,
and that i really can't be teaching after a full day's work,
i need to find back the joy of teaching again.
i seem to have lost my directions and motivations in teaching..
and it gets too aggravating when i can't get the desired outcome.

maybe it's a good time for me to consider if i should go on teaching at all.

~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~

on a happier note, i shall have time for myself,
and for my piano.

i really have lots to catch up on...scales in particular.
since that's the fundamental, and i need to train my fingers again.

ohwells.

what a lengthy and wordy post.
hahas.

sorted my mind out, so i shall nap and teach tuition!!

;D

2010-11-10T00:32:00.003+08:00

today was such a madly crazy day...
Hmms, have to lecture on job interviews,
so there's a presentation.
there's CA2 submission - job advert, cover letter, resume
and i m meeting up with my ip liason officer.

so my checklist amounted to:

1)Email checklist
2)Email edited pictures
3)Lecture Handouts ppt
4)CA2 - Job advert
5)CA2 - Cover letter
6)CA2 - Resume
7)IP - Cover letter
8)IP - Resume
9)IP - Log book
10)Print Email, Placement Notice, read about IP company

Bring Logbook, brown envelopes, formal attire.

and i had to finish all 10 items last night, because all are due today.
and i had tuition!
one of the worst nights ever..

anyhow, me and jocelyn pulled through
she dozed off on her chair,
and i took half an hour nap..
and that was all the rest we had for last night.

oh.. side track...
shall get some cute cottage style baskets to organise my things..
i really need to pack my table

okay.. time to sleep...

night!

2010-11-04T14:34:00.002+08:00

Feeling grumpy for the whole week

too tired from the projects and blahblah!!
really need a good sleep.

went kbox with zhen lover on monday.
tsk, always such hurry!!!
nah, i posted ur pics!

internship starting soon..
nope i dun like blue, and definitely not blue logbooks!
lots of recording to do..
about twice the number of pages in honey's logbook.

and i bought new heeeeels~

to lazy to write properly.. update at night!

關於你的歌

2010-11-01T14:26:00.000+08:00

2010-11-01T14:24:00.000+08:00

humming this song!

李聖傑~關於你的歌
寫一首歌裡滿滿的愛我唱的歌　就寫給妳一個人
妳讓我知道原來情歌所以動人　因為有愛進行著

關於妳的歌　寫著後來我們
一遍遍唱著　未來更多可能
關於妳的歌　寫妳單純天真
看著妳靜靜那種眼神
就會讓我好心疼
愛在沸騰

我們可以漫步在每個清晨黃昏
我們可以愛的深

最希望讓妳快樂
擁抱妳的靈魂
一個我愛的女人

＊。。間奏。。＊

關於妳的歌　寫著後來我們
一遍遍唱著　未來更多可能
關於妳的歌　寫妳單純天真
看著妳靜靜那種眼神
就會讓我好心疼
愛在沸騰

我們可以漫步在每個清晨黃昏
我們可以愛的深

最希望讓妳快樂
擁抱妳的靈魂
一個我愛的女人

＊。。。。。。＊

唱遍了無數的動人情歌
聽得到愛妳的責任
只要我們就相信了緣分
愛會永遠的發生

關於妳的歌　寫著後來我們
一遍遍唱著　未來更多可能
關於妳的歌　寫妳單純天真
看著妳靜靜那種眼神
就會讓我好心疼
愛在沸騰

我們可以漫步在每個清晨黃昏
我們可以愛的深

最希望讓妳快樂
擁抱妳的靈魂
一個我愛的女人
給妳專屬的情歌

＊。。結束。。＊

Wish (music by S.E.N.S)

2010-10-29T03:02:00.000+08:00

Listen to this to sleep tonight..
goodnight and sweet dreams!

2010-10-29T02:40:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, along the path, you will lose your way...
and you turn back, wondering if you should backtrack and re-work your way through that path...
it gets weary, and it certainly gets frustrating..

Coffee, as i say, is one of my best friends now..
can't get by a day without 1~2 cups min.

make a wish..
let me make one tonight..
that friday would be great, and so would the weekend be.

if i ever lose my smile one day..
will you promise to find it back for me..?

2010-10-29T00:13:00.003+08:00

hmmm,
i am onto my 2nd week of school, and work is piling up...
gotta sort out my thoughts and my pile of work before taking a quick nap.

i feel horrendous today, because i had two long weeks,
and have been surviving on lots of caffeine.
anws, today was one of the worst days, when 2 cups of intense coffee did not do the trick..
and i threw up and emptied my tummy in the afternoon..
and considering i only had coffee and a cup of soya bean for the whole day..
it was totally revolting to have to throw up...

sighs.
and there's no appetite for dinner too..
too tired to decide what i want to eat..
and still nauseous to get the food down.
eeps, shirley ang, u are not to fall sick!!

omg, i need to get my nap now.
continue ltr when i wake up..

tatas :D

2010-10-04T15:37:00.001+08:00

hoho, last semestral results are out!
finally not that disappointing,
but i wish i can have A...

ohwells, me and my wishes.

at least i passed GHRM :P
god bless!

new photo edits:

2010-10-03T11:25:00.003+08:00

Has been feeling really blessed this weekend.. let's start with Friday~!

Thursday was Feli's birthday, and we celebrated her 21st on Friday..
It was Oct 1st, which is Children's Day!
Gave her 2 magazine racks and Kino vouchers...
Pics of our proudly decorated (f9 drawings, A* effort) magazine racks to be uploaded later!!
(when i can convince Cheryl that her phone cable isn't so far away that she needs to get plane tickets.)

Anw, so we went for ktv session on Friday afternoon, and steamboat in the evening.
it always feels awesome singing with Feli and Cheryl,
just simply because i know i can be myself,
and fully myself, when i am around them.

there's no need to act or behave otherwise...
they know what i am doing, what i am thinking, and how i will behave the very next moment, without me having to show it.
awesome, isn't it?

"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born."
- Anais Nin

Isn't this absolutely true and worthy?

I just feel so blessed to have them with me..

anws, after all those monkey-ing around in partyworld yishun,
we met mona and had steamboat!

yuanyang - spicy and chicken soup
*blanched at the spicyness*
not a big fan of the spicy soup base
i don't have a high tolerance for the spicyness
and the soup base was numbly spicy!

anws, there were lots of joy and jokes shared..
and i got myself all flushed with heat and happyness!!

The steps evolution is finally launched on Sep 28...
and its full of game bugs D:
*scowls*

nonetheless i m glad to have something as accompaniment when my honey isn't with me!
not that she's replaceable.
:)
i miss u honey!

shall do some photo edits while waiting for my shower~
tatas!

*kisses~!*

my....love?

2010-09-15T11:03:00.003+08:00

my poor fa mei blog...
:P

today wish posted up a poem:

My Darling , my lover , my beautiful wife .
Marrying you screwed up my life.

I see your face when i am dreaming .
Thats why i always wake up screaming.

Kind, Intelligent , Loving and hot .
This describe everything you are not .

Love may be beautiful , love may be bliss,
But i only slept with you because i was pissed.

I thought that i could love no other--
that is until i met your brother.

Roses are red ,violets are blue , sugar is sweet, and so are you .
But the roses are wilting, the violets are dead, the sugar bowl empty and so is your head.

I love your smile, your face, and your eyes!
Damn ! i'm good at telling lies !

My love, you take my breath away .
What have you stepped in to smell this way?

My feelings for you no words can tell,
Except for maybe "Go To Hell"

What inspired this amorous rhyme?
Two parts tequila, one part lime

and this is my note response...
written by urs truly.

okay i m hungry. food!

2010-07-24T14:45:00.000+08:00

i m not usually crazy. i swear.

2010-07-24T12:55:00.002+08:00

hmm one reason as to why i love mozilla so much..
is that i can select and change my skin personas.
it's currently this:

isn't it pretty? the top bar is now a hello kitty banner!

was deciding between that and the minions in despicable me..

but i decided the banner din look as nice when enlarged.

so its a very hello kitty screen now then!

ps, i m noming on very yummy choc from my honey!
i love honey! :D

2010-07-14T23:02:00.003+08:00

hmmms, been really busy w projects, and thus the mia!
okay lousy excuse.
laziness is the real reason.

here's sth i did in a jiffy today..

funny. the wish evolution.
i cant help thinking he's giving me multiple identities! D:
okk back to emails n projects

2010-06-14T19:21:00.004+08:00

i think i can be such a horrid and critical person..
and a super ironical one too!!
this is so annoying and i m pretty pissed off with myself.

okays, my piano student, whom i have taught for almost 7 years now (WOAHS!!!), lives next door to me..
which makes teaching really flexible and convenient...
but it's super unbearable when he practises horribly!

i admit i m not the most patient person (in fact i m a very impatient one :X)
and honestly, i don't mind if you don't know how to play..

BUT BUT BUT

if you try to be clever, and you rush through your practice,
and end up playing gibberish and just getting over with it..
it really annoys me to no end.

so for the past half an hour..
my heart had been going totally @!@^%@#*(&!@&!%@%$
and i swear i m so close to tearing my hair out.
(thank god i bunned it up just now!)

PIFFS!

that pretty much accounts for why i can never make him improve during lessons.
what good is an one hour lesson, if i try my best to correct his playing, techniques, rhythms, dynamics...
and for the rest of the 6 days,
he undoes EVERYTHING by playing as he wishes to?!

for that half an hour when he practiced,
half of me wanted to open the door and yell at him
and the other half of me wanted to open up my piano lid
and start playing the exact song as he is practising.

GAHHHS!

did none of the above, and annoyed myself to limits.
guessed that wouldn't be too polite~

okok.. breathe breathe... cool downnnnnnn...

nah! throw one happy smiley picture to calm down.

Met up with mona, feli, and cheryl on sat to sing k!
omg i miss singing k..
wuahahah~

and my 2weeks break is damn packed.
from morning to night, everyday!
tsk.
so irritating.
i really really really, need my getaway now, before

I

GO

MADDDDD!!

2010-06-02T19:59:00.004+08:00

Lols. this is like the hugest MIA from my blog ever.
Haven't updated this space for a month i guess?
ahahhas,
just a quickie before i launch back into MST revision again.

hmms, got little cards for my some of my favourite friends ..

these are for dodo, elaine and taki..

and this is for my zhiyu honey

awfully cute cards for my sweet friends!

anyway, that was random.. found them in some of the forgotten pictures in my laptop.
so might as well put them up, and write a tad about them.

well, the past month has been long, tiring but manageable for me,
and thus not much update from me.
this blog has always served as a platform for me to get matters off my mind..
and i had spent the month juggling between school, tuition teaching and revision.

loads of matters came through my mind across the month, and one of the most mind-boggling one is about teaching and kids.

children has always been my top favourite since young.

a baby's smile and innocent glance can melt my worries away immediately,
no matter how difficult i may be feeling.

however.. as i go through more teaching, i start to get really worried and confused.
it doesn't seem to be such simple anymore.
for one, teaching is a career that needs satisfaction to keep the passion in check.
sometimes, after teaching, i feel really worn out and demotivated.
those were the days that keep me thinking.
am i a good teacher?
should i continue teaching?

indeed i love to teach.. i love finding different ways to get to an answer..
and i love the satisfaction derived from a student.
however, when the satisfaction is absent, what should i do?

hahahas, anyway, i am on a 2 weeks break from teaching..
partly to do a thorough revision for my mst..
and also to really take a break from teaching.

perhaps, i may find a new inspiration for teaching?

hahahas.. till then!

(back to revision~)

upset ..

2010-05-06T10:34:00.002+08:00

in a pesky and annoyed mood today..
got awaken by 2 alarms.. (i need 2 alarms to rouse me up)
well that's a huge negative factor, because usually i wake up by myself,
then the alarm rings later.

i hate 8am classes, period.

anws, was in Steps last night to complete my daily quest
and saw this squabble over the mini and loudspeaker.
the scenario was probably about Guy X wanting to partner Girl A, but was rejected, and later turned to insulting the girl and her parents.
Then, Girl A's friends took it upon themselves and scolded Guy X over the speakers, said that he's a dog barking, coward and the son of a bitch.

indeed, standing up for your parents is a loyal act.
defending your loved ones is a primal action, but it makes a world of difference to defend and to insult.

i am sure the parents of Girl A are nothing like what Guy X has said,
and the words were not going to harm them in anyway,
in fact, they might have been proud to know that the girl was protective of them.

however, if that protection can only be done with similarly demeaning insults...
it is just going to reflect your character and upbringing.
instead of defending them, you are reflecting badly of them.

now that makes it very different.

moreover, it is her friends who are constantly throwing insults.
yes, he may deserve it, but is it solving anything?

if it's an insult that wouldn't get to your loved ones, because they are far better than said, then don't slash open a new wound and claim it as defense.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

anyways,

my new fav song

— 另一個天堂 - 王力宏 ft 張靚穎

你取代前一秒我生命的空白
問題忽然找到答案
不用解釋也明白

你的微笑是一個暗號
我能解讀那多美好
夢想不大
想永遠停在這一秒

你為我的世界
重新彩繪

是你帶我找到另一個天堂
遠比想像中的更美
我們懷抱裏的這一個天堂
另一個夢想有無限的快樂

相信你是我的另一個天堂
給的愛多麼純粹
因為你而存在這一個天堂
愛是直達的路線

因為你而存在這一個天堂
只想陪在你身邊

我等待下一刻再相遇的精彩
每天每天越來越愛
邏輯就這麼簡單

是你轉到同一個頻道
定位我的幸福座標
我多渺小
能深愛著你最重要

想把妳的明天
仔細翻閱

是你帶我找到另一個天堂
遠比想像中更美
我們懷抱裏的這一個天堂
另一個夢想有無限的快樂

相信你是我的另一個天堂
給的愛多麼純粹
因為你而存在這一個天堂
愛是直達的路線

Mind-bogglers

2010-05-06T00:29:00.003+08:00

met with a couple of stuffs tonight, and i couldn't get that out of my head just yet, so i shall just pen it down, before i head to bed.

Came by this FB wall:
In Loving Memory of Melissa Toh

and as i scroll down the wall page,
as i read on the wall posts left by Melissa's friends, family,
tears just came.

sometimes, it takes departure for you to realise your standing in this world.
sometimes, it takes departure for you to forsake all painful memories.
sometimes, it takes departure for you to end the torturing pain.

Whatever the reason may be, what is left behind, are memories of all times gone through with you, by your friends, by your families, even by your enemies.

may it be joy, laughter, sorrow or tears, every minute spent with each person you interact with, gets replayed in his/her mind, as you pass on.

it doesn't take Picasso to paint out the memories, or Shakespeare to write out the feelings.

Each encounter is a piece of art by itself.

my dear friends, let not departure be the only time for regret.
let it not be a path for escape.
treasure happyness
treasure love
treasure your friends
treasure your family
treasure.. yourself.

xoxo

sweet dreams

Suuuunday out-a-ing

2010-05-02T20:10:00.003+08:00

Received this from my honey~!

Blurr-ed out the words, because they are for my eyes ;D

Sweetie honey, i am really glad and super grateful to have you by me, and with me too.
you always make school and life so much more bearable.

LOVE YOU LOADS!!

you are my angel, in more than many ways you will ever know.

muacks!

we went do have our nails done last wed..
by Precious Nails - Facebook page and Website

this is what i have done:

it's called Graduation nails, with nude pink as base, and glitter grey gradually building up at the tips, and large glitter bits over the tip.

yes, it's my own natural nails, not gel nails!
really lucky and blessed to have hard nails, and yes, they don't break off easily.
only 1 wretched nail - my right middle finger, due to my writing posture, where i will rest my pen on.
yupps, let's see how long i can pull off with this manicure!!

i am totally loving this look. ;D

Went out for mothers' day present yesterday with sis at CP Metro..
we eyed a few branded wallets, not too extravagantly priced, but elegant enough.
but since mum and dad went to casino yesterday, we couldn't decide, so we went back home to ask mum..

in the end, we went out again today,
first to CP, then to Tamp.

gosh, i hate shopping for long hours!!
and we went out at 11.30am, reached home appx 7pm.
not too bad totally, but by 4pm, i was already totally worn out.
(and i had 2 cups of coffee... shopping actually tires me out more than studying!

we had mac breakfast, on sis!

finally made up our minds at tampines..
after extreme long hours of choosing..

a sling bag with a coin pouch from Carlo Rino (mum's pick!)
she paid for this anyway..

Said that was her wedding anni present, and that she will file for a 'claim' from dad.
o.o

idk~

and we got this Bonia wallet for her:

Shared the cost between me and my sis.
the most expensive present we have ever gotten for her.
lols.
=X

our buys from BHG!

And these are my buys:

Finally got my new mouse - It's in HOT PINK!!
WHOOTS.

and my laptop cooler fan!
my old one doesn't spin anymore, and my lappy overheats quickly.

and that small stand will come in handy in school!

so that's all for today's long long day...

In case you miss me..

hahahas, don't!!
(but i miss regular updates on my blog =x)

xoxo~

2010-05-02T00:20:00.002+08:00

wuahahahhas! scroll down for my new update!

procrastinated for too long.

:X this is the newest post:

My Recent Buys

怎么开始忘了

2010-04-25T22:43:00.002+08:00

working on a post now.. so..
watch and listen to this song..
cant get the tune out of me!

张芸京&林隆璇 - 怎么开始忘了

琴键那么重我用技巧去弹奏
情绪那么浓我该用什么去快乐
明明到最后在我失去了以后终于懂得
追梦若是片宽阔天空只是我从没抽离过

吉他那么重我亦无力去弹奏
不想做什么谁能陪我轻唱那首歌
不是我不懂拥抱之后总是难以去承受
那些认真的美好都一闪而过

怎么开始忘了我还能微笑
怎么开始忘了我还有心跳
那些黑色的玩笑没有受伤不会好
我们还在找自己的生存之道

慢慢释怀才能让自己变好
朦胧的话只是无聊的暗号
流言传来传去不知何时平息
该如何去面对那不重要

琴键那么重我用技巧去弹奏
情绪那么浓我该用什么去快乐
不是我不懂拥抱之后总是难以去承受
那些认真的美好都一闪而过

怎么开始忘了我还能微笑
怎么开始忘了我还有心跳
那些黑色的玩笑没有受伤不会好
我们还在找自己的生存之道

慢慢释怀才能让自己变好
朦胧的话只是无聊的暗号
流言传来传去不知何时平息
该如何去面对那不重要

怎么开始忘了我还能微笑
怎么开始忘了我还有心跳
那些黑色的玩笑没有受伤不会好
我们还在找自己的生存之道

慢慢释怀才能让自己变好
朦胧的话只是无聊的暗号
流言传来传去不知何时平息
该如何去面对那不重要

Enjoy~

my recent buys

2010-04-25T10:52:00.002+08:00

Omg. i am such a procrastinator.
i just realised i left this post here.. since apr 25.
LOL!

never got around to finishing it,
so i shall do so now!

i think this was on 17Apr, when i went out with Zhiyu Honey
for a movie, dessert, shopping treat!

Got a pair of new flats from Cotton On - Rubi
Some of the selected flats are at 50% off, so this is at $10.

Kinda annoying, cos i got another pair of flats from the same range, at the org. price ($19.95)
just 2 weeks before i got this.
ahahahs, wells, at least i still managed a good deal.

got myself some tights at discounted price too.
Awesome!

we watched Shutter Island
and she has movie tix treats!
Yay-ness

thanks honey!! ♥♥

hmms, horrible show.
or rather, horrible plot.

the storyline didn't do justice to the trailer!!

honestly, after watching the trailer, i thought a psychotic and dangerous female criminal is on the loose on the island. She's the most feared one and has to be quickly put away. The pursuit is long and scary.

Therefore, i thought she would be the focus of the movie, and it will be really cool, especially since most of such fearsome murderers are rarely females.

BUT!!!

that's totally not the storyline. Instead, the story revolved about the detective, who was sent over to solve the crime and capture the woman. And the detective was sent into a frenzy, to double guess his sanity and later sent for the ultimate purpose of the Island - human experiment.

the ending totally sucked. you are left hanging, wondering if he's really insane, or if the island is really made for such experiments.

GOSH.
=.=

and i guess it isn't the movie producers' fault, because, we went to browse through the title at a bookstore ( i think it's Times) at Plaza Sing, and that's exactly the story plot. GAHS!

pui pui pui!

hmms,
some other things that i have gotten recently..

SUNGLASSES!

the dark one is mine, and the brown is zhiyu's.

we got fascinated by the braided sides. :D

isn't it totally gorgeous?

however, the width of the sunglasses are rather narrow, so it presses down on the sides of my fat face.

hmpfs.

couldn't tell if the specs would be suitable for us, because we got it over the net, from Forever21.

maybe next time we should sneak down to F21 outlets before ordering our items!!

okays i shall be good and write my next post now.. and perhaps schedule in the posting date!

tatas.

xoxo..

Review: ElishaCoy Always Triple BB Cream

2010-04-24T21:31:00.007+08:00

Came by this facebook wall post by Lush Beauty
Link from here: Lush Beauty - Revealing your Natural Beauty

Basically, I sent in my particulars as stated ..
and within 1 week, i received this:

erms, the tube in the box.
not the basket.

anyways, it's 15 ml..
and i assume it can last me for a month or so,
and i have used it thrice in the past week.

So that's a good amount for a free review.

this BB cream has a triple feature:
1. UV Protection - SPF 30++PA
2. Anti-wrinkle
3. Skin Whitening.

a before and after review process will start from here..
and i shall end off with a personal opinion.

Before:

I have broken capillaries, acne scars and dark eye circles D:

begin with toner and moisturiser,
since the BB Cream already has SPF, i skipped my usual sun block.

this shall be my area of focus - the side of my cheek.

after applying a light layer of concealer from Benefit,
it seems almost smooth.

Later i applied on thin pea sized amount of cream over areas of my face, and evenly have it spread out.

After applying foundation, i put on light shimmery blush from Maybelline, lined my eyes, curled my lashes and applied on lip gloss.

tadahs!

Easy peasy.

What i like about this BB Cream:

Unlike other BB creams, it provides good coverage without clotting up my pores or leaving my skin oily. I realised that i can skip my concealer by just plainly putting on the cream alone. In addition, after using this product for 2 weeks, i have not gotten any breakouts yet, thus, it's really good.

Problems i have with it:

It gets absorbed really quickly, so i have to dot really light small dots along small areas. Any big dots of product will just sink into the face, and that area will show up as particularly white. kind of scary actually. but once you get the hang of it, it's really easy.

:)

I will probably get this product for quick applications!

Ps: to manufacturer of this product, i just scrutinised the details printed at the back of your product and this is what was written on it:

ALWAYS TRIPLE BB
This multifunctional product protects skin from the sun, improves wrinkles and whitens skin.

That 'improving wrinkles' part sounded kinda odd to me, so you may wanna consider reviewing the choice of words there.

Okay that's that!

Thanks for the product, I had fun using it! Especially on school days when getting out is already a huge rush for me :X

2010-04-24T21:22:00.002+08:00

gosh.. i have a lot of blogging to do..
list them down first and work my way through...

1. Review on Elisha Coy Triple BB cream
2. Pre-school week and first week of school..
3. Recent youtube subscribes
4. Recently watched movies

meanwhile..
listen to lady gaga's Bad Romance!!

I can't get the tune outta my head, kinda addicting.

Enjoy!!

i love surprises!

2010-04-14T12:43:00.007+08:00

received the sweetest surprise yesterday.
hmms, was playing with dodo in steps
and this babe hasn't eaten her breakfast/lunch
and she was lazy to cook.

and she asked me when i would be teaching and if i would be staying in.
i thought she wanted to order mac and come over to eat with me.
which would be kinda odd.
yet she said she didn't wanna head out
and so i thought she was just kidding.

and viola!
i received a call and the guy claims to be from McDonald's and asked me to open the door for him.
i got a shock totally.
cos i m in my pjs,
and i din order any mac
and i certainly thought that he got the wrong address or the wrong order or something like that.

BUT
there's really an uncle standing outside!

and guess wat..
dodo ordered mac for me, and paid for me!!
omg babe.

thanks loads and i love you la!!!

you always give the most random surprise and that really made my day!

if you are a guy,
i am so gonna woo you and make you my man.
and demand that you marry me this very instant,
so that you wont leave me EVER.

please.
this babe is awesome.

she's so cute and adorable and no, i am not going to flatter her ego,
but she does the most random things. I SWEAR!
and she has the funniest sense of humour,
and leaves you exasperated, but still can't help but totally LOL.

imagine that was exactly what me and taki darling did,
2 nights ago.
when she totally made funny comments in steps, lobby channel
and it was like..midnight? and we were laughing loudly.
HHAHAHAS.

i love you babe!

she gives the sweetest and most thoughtful surprises,
and totally leaves you astounded.
GUYS PLEASE LEARN THIS.

girls love to be surprised, no matter what.
and it's the kindest thoughts that are the most sweetest.

and what good is a surprise, if the girl can guess it already?

ahahs i simply adore this babe.

okayys, so i was going to clear my desktop today..
and my files in the drives.

my messy desktop!!
and i wanted to change the wallpaper..

since...

i broke off with my steps partner..

yay-ness!

anws,
that's awesome. :D

and since i was at it, might as well delete off the old screenshots.
which had unconsciously amounted to a whooping...

1.54gb? D:

no wonder my lappy was so laggy.

look at the screenshots i deleted.

~~654~~ 656 pictures!!

each picture is about 1.5mb, so do the math!

and i have other screenshots in My Pictures, so i am going to delete them off too.
that is going to clear up alot of disk space.

*grins*

school is starting next week, and of course the timetable would be out.
was out last week i think.
LY sent us this, before the timetable was released.
and NO! this isn't our timetable.

i wished it was!
;(

this is my timetable..

not too bad, but i prefer short days!

anws,
regarding my blog header for GurlsLike2Shop,
i did up 2 designs for her.
this was the first i did,

which i thought was getting complicated and i didn't like it,
so i scrapped it and restarted on a new file,

and this was the 2nd one.

elaine wifey thought this was better,
and i submitted both to her,
and she used the 2nd one.

ahahs. just doing a favour to her,
since she has always been so nice to me.

alrights, i shall go cook lunch, and maybe i can blog about the things i cook..in..
the next entry?

xoxo!

2010-04-12T23:06:00.002+08:00

feeling a lil fretty (is there such a word? shall flip the dictionary)
EDITS: i mean fretful.

hmms. possible because school is startin next mon, 19 April,
and i am really worried about this year.
partly because i really haven't been doing well.
way way way below my expectations,
and i really need to buck up.

and the other reason,
is, them.

i don't wanna go through the last year of my poly in regrets,
but i do wonder if they are even concerned about this at all.

i am feeling bitter.
honestly, i do not regret making the decision of not working with them.
neither am i regretting speaking my mind during that afternoon.
the only thing i regret is not speaking up earlier, and perhaps more tactfully.

tolerating isn't the most pleasurable thing to do.
swallowing down the workload isn't going to solve the ultimate problem either.

feeling bitter because, everybody is somehow apprehensive about working with them,
yet none are willing to face the music.
and now that the holiday is coming to an end,

this is ultimately going to be a pandora box that needs to be opened,
sooner or later.

and i cannot imagine the repercussions.

it's either going to work out fine, or nasty.

and i have an inclination that it would be the latter.

went to fox warehouse sale with honey last saturday,
and we both each got a Tweety Bird shirt that says
"INNOCENT"

and she suddenly reminds me of how..
last year holiday,
the 4 of us each got a piece of a pink hang 10 shirt with a heart on it.
and this year,
we only got 2 pieces.

ohwells.

reminisces.

if swallowing your shortcomings is the only way to maintain this friendship,
let me tell you, your definition friendship is even shallower.
and it wasn't as if we had not attempted to correct you guys.
who lost their tempers.
who cried, and who was angry and mad.
who repeatedly insisted that they were correct..

whatever the outcome may be,
i do hope that it will be resolved soon.
let work remain as work, and friendship as friendship.

Sunday Buys

2010-04-11T10:30:00.003+08:00

I should finish this post before i get distracted again.

this post is all about things.. that happened last ... Sunday?
OOPSY~!

ahahahs bought a few items after my tuition on Sunday.
tadurhhs..
hair conditioner,body foam and hair cocktail.

all are new items i haven't tried before. so adventurous that day ;X
the hair conditioner is okay for me so far..
but i have really dry and and frizzy hair,
so basically, i don't see much difference if i leave it sitting for 1-3min as stated.
usually go up to 5~10min, if i can spare the time.

see,
i don't spend a lot of time showering.
it's the process that takes up alot of time.
yeaps.

the body foam is a rich vanilla scent..
a tad like white choc smell.
i m a sucker for sweet scents.
wuahahahah~!

(i suddenly remember how she used to say i will get diabetes from using them, cos they smell awfully sweet.)

and...i dreamt last night that we were back on talking terms.. gosh. ;(

that liese cocktail in the first picture is my current fav item.
used to use this juicy shower ..
but i dun really feel any difference in my hair.. except for that berry burst scent,
which i love ;)

but since the juicy shower is ~~running out,~~ finished already,
started on the hair cocktail instead.
gotta shake it, and pour a few drops and smoothen it onto your hair,
by running ur fingers through it.
*note: don't overuse it.*
:X

anws, it works as it weighs my hair down,
so it doesnt frizz up as much.

and some new cosmetics from Rimmel

only wanted to get a waterproof mascara.
The freebie from The Body Shop isn't waterproof.
got a shock when i removed my contact lens.
fingers were wet, and when i pulled on my upper and lower eyelids, the mascara just came off.
so annoying!

anw, the new one from Rimmel works just fine now.
din like that its in blue though ;(
i like the brush, which is soft and flexible,
as opposed to hard and stiff.

cheryl wondered if i will break the brush off.
;X
i won't!
i am a gentle lady.
(DONT you puke ~)

anw, i met taki on...wed?
she gave me a lolly!

a strawberry one too
YUMS.
ate it up yesterday.
it's nice nice nice!

and i was telling her about the lolly that i bugged dodo for.
and dodo gave me a huge lolly last xmas.

cannot eat derh!!
but if i use it in the shower,
the scent will remind me of dodo all day long.
only.. i 舍不得 open it and use it!

And sunday was Easter Sunday,
so i got a pack of easter eggs for my students.
nope, it isn't bribery, i swear.
:)

oh, i met MrsEvil and ChunChun (venven) on monday,
to pass them some easter eggs,
and to pass babyevil his new shirts too.
awws, i love delvin.

ahahas, yayys, i have finished this post,
and i shall get started on my new project.
designing a blog header for a blogshop i frequent,
and i am trying to persuade the lady to let me do her blog design too,
but she prefers her easy layout.
we shall see, shan't we?

xP

xoxo!

Partyworld on 31 March!

2010-04-02T19:21:00.003+08:00

Took an offday for myself on wednesday,
to go to partyworld with cheryl and feli !

ahahhas i always love being around with them...

at one part, the both of them were supposed to be deciding on dinner venue,
and i was singing a song,
so they raised their voice over my singing.

so i decided to pass them the mics instead,
so the 2 of them were using mics to discuss about what food restaurants!!
i found it so comical that i couldnt stop laughing..
and laughed throughout the song 出界 by 郑秀文

it's quite a nice song..
have been singing it since 3 years ago?
ahahhas.

anyway.
later they started collaborating .. and poking and tickling me!
D:

so i gave them my infamous pout. :D
Lols!

and while they went to the ladies..
i continued singing.
so when they came back, they decided to cover the words on the screen to test my memory.
=.=

Partywold really has the largest collection of songs.
i couldn't find the song 挥着翅膀的女孩 in k box
and that was the first song i started singing when i was 13. :D

Anws.. Cheryl..

and Feli!

LOVES!!

i like this picture :)
awws.~

and for dinner we decided to go Thai Express..
and i ordered Pineapple Fried Rice.
It's a Must try!!

and how Thai Epress works.. is that their menu has item code for every dish.
and midway, i started to 出界.. and by their definition,
it means going out of this world... by being all dazed out.
hahas!

and then, to try to catch up on their conversation,
they were talking about flying chilies at 313.

so i was like..."huh.. where?"
as i frantically flipped the menu, and checking out all their item codes.
and all were in 4 digits, but 313 was a 3-digit!

then Cheryl started giving me weird look.
and Feli said, 313, Somerset.

Oh.

313 is a new shopping centre at Somerset.
and Flying Chilies isn't a dish at Thai Express,
it's a restaurant name.

and they insisted that i put this on my blog.
LOL.

ahahahahahah
i am not dumb!

just ... blur?
xP

2010-03-31T12:10:00.003+08:00

oh i realised i left out a lot of thoughts in the previous post. Anyway, the reason for me posting up the * in the buy 2 get 1 free promotion in The Body Shop is because..
I got 3 VitE items - my third item is the lower priced item.
and Taki got 4 items, 3 in the seaweed range, and she was hoping that the free item would be the lowest priced item from the range. and that the 4th item, would be counted otherwise.

and that was what i thought too, cos that was the order the cashier guy scanned in the items in.

(i think that was what the cashier guy assumed to be too).

However, the cash machine picked out the 2 lowest priced items from the scanned in list, and it turned out to be my 3rd item and taki's 4th item. And it took super long for the cashier guy to comprehend the receipt. D:

he's more blur than i am! I SWEAR.

and there are times i burst out laughing at the cashier.. because he's so clumsy.
and he was super bewildered, and asked us, "Why you all laughing? Why?"

LOL! Customers cannot laugh ah.
=.=

Anyway, i couldn't stop laughing at him, even if i didn't laugh out loud.

Such a comical guy. Tsk!

i cant think of what else i had forgotten.. Shall update this again!

The Body Shop

2010-03-29T12:38:00.006+08:00

went on an unplanned lunch-dinner-dessert date with taki on saturday..
turns out we did not eat dinner and dessert!
gahhhs~!

Taki had pork ribs prawn noodles at an outlet opposite bugis junction, and I had cold barley.
hmms, i wonder how her noodles tasted..

anyways, we went shopping at bugis junction, with my intention to get a cute pouch,
and we ended up buying a lot of other stuffs!
Girls. Tsk!

*side note: i wanna buy OPI Nail polishes!*

okays, so we went to Watsons first, and got a huge bottle of nail polish remover for taki..
some lip balm, and i forgot what else she had gotten.
o.o some amazing memory i had.
And we saw a guy that was 2.3m tall?
look, i am 1.6m, and i was somewhere just reaching his lower back.
so he was awfully tall, not very good looking,
but we were amused by how the cashier had to look upwards to serve him.

anyway, the cashier is a funny person.
she kind of packed all of taki's purchases, accepted and settled the payment,
and went on bustling around with her things.
and both me and taki were wondering if she was going to pass her the bag of packed items,
which she DIDN'T!! and so she just grabbed it and went off.

Credits: freeworldradionetwork.net

(psst, of course we didn't wait for 30 minutes. )

walked around a little..
saw quite alot of cute stuff, but not the pouch i wanted!!
kind of need a cosmetic pouch.. ( i know i have alot of pouches =X)

Credits: http://glitzy-glam.com/

Something like the above would do fine..
though it would be nice if i could have my name embossed on it or something.
:D
Something that could be cleaned and easily wiped and isn't of those really plastic-y material.
so..
it's still hunting in the process!

anyways, we went to The Body Shop for our last stop
and i think we spent at least half an hour in the shop.
and i said, i wouldn't have to get anything
cos i got a bundle from the warehouse sale..

...

and...

LOOK AT WHAT I HAVE GOT!!

I got these 3 VitE items..
at the Buy 2 Get 1 Free* promotion

(* - lower priced item. I am not trying to pretend to be a merchandiser, but you will understand why later..)

and since we went together, and Taki got her seaweed items..
(no, they are not edible)
and we made a grand total purchase of ... $139.xx
GOSH!

and we got a free item!

(which Taki kindly let me have it..)
THANKS DARLING!!

she spent more than i did,
so i was abit awkward to get it instead.

lols.
shirley you are so horrible.
D:

anw, a short review on the items i got..:

Hydrating toner..

To be used after cleansing..
something that i am always lazy to do..
so I am hoping that i can keep up to this!

Exfoliator..

i like the crushed jojoba beads..
as opposed to St. Ives Apricot scrub..
Only because the jojoba beads are finer and thus less harsh.
ohs. Exfoliator removes dead skins off your face.. and will leave you with smoother skin :)

a cream cleanser.

the cream cleanser is really smooth and creamy..
which left me doubtful.
cos it's like a lotion, and i wonder if it cleans well.
so i am using this at night, after my exfoliator.

Sink-in moisture mask

this small tub came with the freebie, and i haven't gotten around to using it,
but since it's a Vit E product, it should be in this post! ;D

and the moisture cream

which i got from the warehouse sale.
i am glad i did, cos i checked out the price at the outlet, and it was $27.90,
and i got this at $15 at the sale.
:)

The freebie came in a really pretty lilac pouch..

with a mirror in it.

sis said that it was pretty too!
Shall be giving her the mascara, since I have already gotten one from the warehouse sale.

Oh, she doesnt want the mascara! Anyone wants it? It's a travel sized tube one.. let me know if you want it. :)

hmms. shall see what i am gonna cook for lunch.. and perhaps nap a little before heading out to teach!

xoxo!

2010-03-26T11:38:00.003+08:00

hmms..
my student at yck - WT, is my newest student..
and boy, she's so unpredictable!

was telling my mum and honey that she's quite good tempered..
the first week when i taught her..
she surprised me quite a bit..

my lesson is right after her nap..
and children, even me, tend to be very grouchy when they wake up.
but for the first few lessons, she was cheerful and high spirited.
which was brilliant..

gradually, she started throwing tantrums..
and being mischievous and all of that..
hahas, yes it's okay to be playful,
but it isn't okay to be playful during lesson time.

so recently..
she was super sweet on wed..
cos i came up with a new reward system.
whereby, she will get a 'tick' for each good performance, but a 'cross' for each bad behaviour.
and 10 ticks will get her a pretty sticker.. and 10 crosses will take away a sticker from her.
naturally, with that reward system in place, she was sweet for the day
and even gave me a hug.
;D

but the next day..
she danced and sang during maths.
and got all her sums wrong.
=.=
super distracted and couldn't focus..
so i had a little talk with her and her mum.
and she cried.
gahhs D:

hope today will be fine!

anw, these are pictures i took at her house..
when her mom failed to send her back for class in time.

that's her grandparents' house actually..
bunking in with them, whilst their house is under renovation.
somewhere nearby, which is good.
(i found out where's their house =X)
this is... 3 storey high..
super rich family..
considering how expensive Singapore land is.
and that the design and the decorations are all high-end..

alalalas.

i finally got my piano fixed!!

the tuner guy dismantled my piano..
this is the keyboard.

he took away the cover and the book stand..
which i din take pictures of..

but here's the piano without the cover!

he had to change in a new string for the broken piece..
and then tune the piano.

oh!
my table is messy again.
HAH!

hmms..
have been playing piano a lil ..
just to reduce the heartache ..
haahahha very expensive larhhhs!

oh. on monday..
my student's granny gave me 2 mangoes..

and she insisted on putting them in a nice paper bag..
so that it wouldnt look ugly when i take bus back home.
she's such a sweet granny!

just to tempt u guys again..
B&Js!!
wuahahah.. choc and strawberry.
the best.

tatas!
Loves. :D

love?

2010-03-22T15:04:00.002+08:00

has been raining for the week and i love the weather!
better rainy than sunny.
lols

wells, i dont sleep with the air-conditioning turned on,
so, it always helps to have the weather really cool
so that i can snuggle under the comforter and sleep soundly.

ahahahs!

dad got me geisha chocs from the food fair at expo..
said it was pink and totally suited me.

i know my parents are forever demanding of us,
regardless of their intentions
and yeaps, probably because it's their style of love, care and concern.
but whatever the reason is..
sometimes, it really gets on my nerves..

like yesterday..
mum made me promise to sweep and mop the floor,
and to wash the toilets for the rest of the holidays,
because, i am having my holidays.
has always been this way, since we were young..
and all 3 of us will share the housework among ourselves..

but i am feeling unjustified,
not because i have to do them,
i dont mind.

but because my siblings are not expected to.
yes my sister is working,
but so am i..
yes my brother is studying,
but when i am studying,
i have to do mine too...
and ... i have been doing my own laundry..
every part of it..
for the past 2 years..
and sometimes, i even have to do theirs.

i know as a family, i shouldnt be so calculative..
but sometimes, i just cant help being vexed over this.

then there's the settling of legal issues part..
and technical stuffs too..
cmon, i am not anymore equipped with knowledge than they are..
so why am i expected to type emails to the lawyer
and expected to find legal assistance
and settle all the technical issues, like router problem, modem breakdown, computer malfunctioning, etc..

the point is,

i really dont know how to!

and i have to find out how to do them,
because i am expected to,
and because they are not expected to.

sighs.

i get frustrated especially when my parents will sugarcoat their words..
and say, "if you do well, we will pay for your uni fees.."
or say, "you are a good girl right? so help out with the housework."

cmon lahs.
even if i am not a good girl, i have to do right?
so what's the catch in trying to do that..?

aikes, whatever.

Mangoes..
i am wondering if its the mangoes season.. cos everybody seems to be eating mangoes.
anw, these are sweet mangoes, so they are awfully good!

(yes i like to use the kiddy bowl.. :D)

the book that i am currently reading, from Tess Gerritsen

it's the Mephisto Club.

That's how i got to know this word "mephisto" anyway,
so i had read this book before..
but there arent any books i wanna read from the library..
and i am not inclined to purchase any just yet.

hahs, re-reading old books then!

before i end off..
here's sweetie..
a hot pink teddy bear from VS.

she's the teddy by my bedside for the time-being,
till i decide to change to another soft toy..
:D

tatas~!

buys galore~

2010-03-20T19:59:00.002+08:00

havent been able to update blog..
cos i m way too tired when i reach home.
lousy excuse, cos i only teach 3 kids ..
but teaching 1 to 1 can get really tiring

cos u must really be focused..
lols.

petville first..

ahahah.. my pet's fashion..
there are loads more clothes..
but these are the ones i have made Tutu wear for more than a day..

suit 7 is the funniest one.
haahha i got the suit from the 4leaf clover game~

okay.. back to teaching.
i bought some books for my students..
the behind 2 books are for my 1st student..
whom i have taught for the longest time..

and the below 2 books are for the new student, Wei Tian..
her theory is bad..
so i got her a fun theory book to do..
to build on her foundation again..

there are fun stickers..

and pretty coloured pages!

a good choice..
cos she got interested in theory .. yayys!

got these from watsons..
basic necessities..

yes i need pink toothbrush.
it's necessary.

a new cardi from Cotton on!
at clearance..
it's.. $10?

ahaha i love the floral patterns..

this is the brown flipflops from Old Navy
wedges style!
so that i dont have to be a shortie :D

i like it..
it's really comfy and the exact size!
i m.. size 7.

and i got my flats from cotton on..
floral again =X

with a nice bow on the top!!

i bought another pink flipflop..
and it's really nice..
even more comfy.

shall write properly..
cos i m feeling sluggish~

tatas!

youtubing..

2010-03-14T23:23:00.002+08:00

here's what kept me up last night..
till 3am?
=X

was watching youtube on my phone..
and this is on the Power Sunday with 小小彬
awesome!

i missed it on teevee, so i was upset..
and couldnt sleep.
decided to youtube for it, and i m super glad to have found it!

Part 1:

Part 2:

Part 3:

Part 4:

and before that i was watching
我猜我猜我猜猜猜！！
well, if u know me..
i am bad at holding my laughter.

cheryl and feli can make me laugh at the snap of their fingers..
unless i m annoyed that day
but honestly, it's hard to be annoyed when i am around them.
so anw..
ahahahs i had a hard time

cos ..
how to hold in your laughter..
at like 1am in the morning..
and i share room with my sis
so i obviously cannot start roaring with laughter..
and it's just torturous.

serves me right
cos i woke up with a bad headache today.

ahahahah!
hope u enjoy the shows too!

shoes?

2010-03-14T11:47:00.003+08:00

Wanna get some new shoes...
kinda have to get more flats..
cos they are more practical, and my ankle has been pretty bad
ever since i sprained it..
and it's really annoying.
ahahahs!

help me decide!

Heels
1.

HL0006 - cream

Wedges
2.

P0001 - pink

Flats!
3.

FL0040

4.

FL0024

5.

FK0004

6.

FL0006

7.

FA0016

can't decide..
like 7 and 2.. and 6 looks more practical..
arghs.

picture credits:
http://hauteurban-spree.blogspot.com/

The Body Shop Haul~

2010-03-13T20:01:00.003+08:00

been on a glittery love..
ahahhas, got a set of crystals and i shall decorate my phoneeee!

glanced upon this:

kinda like the design a lot, and i should be doing something of that concept.
only.. i dont want it to be that blingy,
so i m considering, if i should only make that hello kitty shine,
and lay out the rest of the phone with pearly deco instead.
idk.
still brainstorming.

ohs.
updates from the Leow..
lalalas,
after bugging her and nagging at her for the entire day.

so, on 26 feb..
we ( cheryl, me n feli ) went to partyworld at north point!
ohhs, there's this 20% (on weekends) and 25% (on weekdays) discount for students.
cant really remember the exact details,
so update me!

thought i looked weary that day.. so not much pictures of moi!
we sang for like 4 hours..
and after 2+ hours.. we started to get tired..
and i found this!
wuahahahah

clever girl.

and there are 5 dices in each set..
and we used it to play the dicey game.
i dont know the name...

something like.. can start by calling.. three-six..
meaning there are 3 dices with the number 6 on it.
and if u suspect that there's a bluff, u can catch.

something like that.

this is the first game that i learn, that involves such usage of dices.
i dont play mahjong or poker ...
ahahah!

oh, i like the effects from the desk.

all pictures above are taken by cheryl!

and on thursday..
cheryl accompanied me to The Body Shop warehouse sale..
omgish..
bad choice.

cos it was the first day of the IT show..
and the crowd is MADNESS!

nevertheless, i got my fav shower foam!!
Cassis Rose.. the scent is awesome.
LOVES.

and i got myself vit E moisture cream..
realised that my skin has been getting really dry...
esp the sides of my face, after my facial wash.
sheesh..

these are travel sizes..
got myself shampoo, conditioner, showergel and body lotion.
wild cherry is my 2nd fav scent, after the cassis rose..

because our total purchases exceeded $65,
we got a free mascara!
cheryl doesnt use it, so i got to keep it!
yippie~!

my haul at The Body Shop Sale..

oh, was feeling giddy and having headaches for the past few days..
so i got myself a pack of skittles to chew on,
whenever i cant focus.

something is wrong with my head..
and it's very annoying.
getting dizzy spells..

popped panadols yesterday..
and they taste awful.

oh.
i just came back from popular members' day sale at ION orchard.
amazed that popular is located at ION, and on level 4 and 5 too!

turns out that it's named as Prologue.
and the things inside are all at 25% discount for today only.
so i grabbed a few stuffs,
restocked on my stationery and found my favourite pens!
hmm...
updates of today... tomorrow!

ahahah...
cool night, so i gonna feed my pet in PetVille and read my book in bed!
tatas!

my handiwork!

2010-03-10T23:39:00.006+08:00

Let me introduce to u....

*drumrolls*

my new pouchie!
it's my handphone holder..

got it from minitoons on thursday
and i m ultimately pleased with my buy.

firstly, it's adorable and classic
and secondly, it has another zip at the back,
and i used it to keep my earphones, and i never did lose them again!
*GRINS~*

on Saturday..
after the mind cafe outing with taki and sophie and sophie's sis and dodo
(yes, i know, i should use commas)
and Sophie, her sis and taki went with me to Spotlight to get the following:

there's a box, some lace, a string of faux pearls, cloth, soft cottony layer, paint for wood, and glue(from carrefour)
Sophie helped me pick out the lace and the pearls..
and we both agreed that the cloth was a good choice and that the Candy coloured paint is awesome!

i like this colour combi and the pattern..
it's a lil patchy.. and i like the feel!

and this!
Sophie picked this out for me..
it was a great idea!
i laid it under the cloth, and it gave a soft padding to the inside of the box.

a close up of the other materials..
oh honey, this paint is waterproof.
i accidentally dripped water droplets on it, and the colour stayed.

hmms this glue is good.
it dries as fast as it promises.
so don't be greedy, like me, and squeezed a generous portion, only to watch it dry up.
*scowls*

okay here's how to use.
this glue dries in 5 min, and it dries clear
there's another one, that dries in clay colour,
so get the right one for the right usage.
i m using to stick on the deco, and naturally, i wouldnt want the clayey look.

squeeze a little of tube A, appx the size of ur finger tip,
and squeeze another bit of tube B, of the same proportion.
squeeze them into a plastic bowl/cup.. so long as the holding surface isnt flat.
using the spatula, mix them evenly, and tadah!!

the good thing about this glue, is that it dries really quickly
and it dries really firmly.
so no worries about the decos falling off.
and u dont need a flat surface to apply this on..
(as you will see later)

the bad thing is that..
it's really sticky and stinky.
haahha!
it doesnt sticks your fingers together like super glue
*thank god*
but the residue is hard to remove..
takes a few hours for it to fully fall off.

so i first painted the wooden box pink...

gave it 2 - 3 coats of paint.. so that the wood wouldn't show up at all.

and i started sticking on the deco..
no pictures.. cos i din want to make the camera or my phone sticky.

i like this deco!
stole it from my mum's abandoned hair tie.
cut off the strings, and stuck them on!

i like the flowery feel..

and i added on other details onto the cover of the box.
wrote her name onto the box with white acrylic paint.
i wrote really nicely..
and i found out.
I COULDN'T PAINT!
D:

how awful.

this is the part i din like about my handiwork.
sorry honey!

and stuck on the crystals..

the top is a lil plain..
wanted to put on roses..
but..
i was afraid of overdoing it..

so that was my final work!

put dried scented leaves and flowers into the box
cos i really though the glue was stinky.

after i finished with my handiwork..
in the night, i painted my nails!
it says..."LOVE"~~

nice ma?
i kinda like the shade..
and the white deco against it.

i got this shade on... sunday?
at Watsons
it's by Rimmel, and was on 20% discount.

i like the brush of this nail polish..
it glides on really smoothly..
just like an eyeshadow brush.

as compared to the Face Shop brush tip..
which is thin and sparse..
and really left bubbles in my polish,
to my much irritation.

shall change my nail polish..
either to rimmel, or to opi

and this is opi brush..
the colour is richer..
and the brush is thicker.

okayys!
food updates tmr..
cos this post is getting too long.

i know u miss me! ;D

hopes honey likes it..
i was quite worried if i would give myself away.
my honey is super clever.
she can always tell what present i would give her.
piffs!

tatas and good night!

ALICE in Wonderland 3d

2010-03-08T12:48:00.006+08:00

Caught this movie on it's first day of screening 4 Mar 10!
and we went early in the morning, and got the tickets for 11.30am one.

din really like the 3d glasses,
which were kinda blurry at the sides..
and motion pictures (eg, thrillers) have always gotten me nauseous.
so.. the 3d one was just as bad..

mid way through the movie, it got a tad better...
maybe my eyes were getting accustomed?
ahahha.

here's the sneak pictures on the movie..
dun look if you find it to be a spoiler!

one of the garden scenes..
the evil red queen was using the flamingo (upside down) as a golf stick
and the porcupine was tied up to be a golf ball.
so cruel!
double ouches! one for the flamingo, one for the porcupine.

this mouse is pretty cute..
and obnoxious too!

My fav character
Played by Johnny Depp!
The Hatter.
he makes hats..
and Depp just makes the character ALIVE!
love his actings, always.

more of the arrogant queen..

and the funny fat boys!
they remind me of humpty dumpty

the white queen.
i dont quite like her look.
she's white alright..
but the brows are so much darkened..and the lips too!
made her look almost evil godmother-ish
if not for her dainty acts..

i think here's where the phrase - grinning like a Cheshire cat - came about.
super ridiculous cat.

a few products have been inspired by this movie..
and my favourite..
is... of course...
OPI NAIL POLISHES!!

the colours are almost always amazing.

this is the Almost Alice shade..
i guess they got the bluish, from alice's gown..
i hate blue, and so.. no comments about this one.

this is Mad As Hatter.
and i love this one!
the glitter combined with the dark tone!
absolute loves.

this is Off with her Red!
i guess the name came from the movie, where the Red Queen's fav quote was..
"OFF WITH HER HEAD!"
ahahah..
the shade is gorgeous..
orangey red..
abit too loud for me though..

ilikethisoneverymuchhhh
ThanksSoMuchness!
okay.. there's nothing wrong with my space bar..
just that i like the lil sparkles in the shade.
ahahah
and it's not loud red, so it's bearable!

okays.. so much for alice and her wonderland..

went to town with honey in my wedges.. which was a bad idea
got stopped by this HerbaLife company, who claimed to take only 10min of our time
but ended up taking 30min.
hellooooo... do u read the clock?
so much for asking us to trust in your products, when you cant even keep to the simple promise of sticking to the time needed.
sheesh!

and we had a hearty lunch at foodrepublic - wisma..
the herba folks were saying.. that they hope their body analysis is not going to disturb our appetite.
thank you very much, we ate alot more than intended!
cos you kept us HUNGRY.
ahahhaahha

i like getting soup for lunch when i m out..
cos mummy rarely cooks soup at home.
and i love soup so much.

ohwells.
gonna go meet honey real soon.
so i m gonna start getting ready.
EXCITED!!
;D she just msged me and said..
her itp requires her to do training analysis for 800 people over 6 weeks!!
and our training project gave us 6 weeks to analyse one person!
that much of a difference!
horrible.

okayys.. look out for updates of tonight's dinner

and..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS FOO!!
love you loads.

honestly, you really made poly life so much more bearable
and you made projects do-able.
hahaha, am i glad to find you in poly!!!
loveeees.

Credits:

all Alice pictures are from Google images
and the opi nail shades are taken from Scrangie.com

3 days of FUN!

2010-03-08T12:02:00.004+08:00

25 Feb 2010
Class lunch (dinner actually) after RM paper!

went to Breeks at Changi Airport t2...
and there was students meal package..
we adore good food at low prices, don't we?

Creamy soouuuup

Black peppered chicken
i love the sauce..
it's not overly peppery, and addictive nonetheless.

PEPPERMINT ICECREAM!
(it's my fav icecream.. i just love peppermint.)
oh, that reminds me, i ran out of mints.. need to go get some later.

and class photo(s)!

kinda love how we had so many gatherings suddenly..
if you would recall the cny one.. and this lunch outing and the gathering at vanna's house on..4 march.
which i couldnt go..
cos i would be teaching at 5..
at this ulu place in yck.
hope they had tremendous load of fun!

i got all of these hauls at minitoons!

and i got my sis a nice tortee (tortoise) there too..
cos she had been upset recently..
so i tot she would wanna hit the tortee or sth.

but she rejected it.
so now it's mummy's.

26 Feb 2010
Met up with feli and cheryl on friday!
WHOOTS!!
omg i miss them
and i so wanted to sing k

( i m missing them now.. though i am not in the mood for k.. but ahahah.)
i just miss them.

just that.. i can really be myself..
i do alot of stupid things when i m out with them..
not that they condone my stupidness..
but they are just..
the best.

ohwells.
i m jabbering.
lol.

hmm.. no pics for this outing..
cos they are all with cheryl.

CHERYL!! I want the pictureeeees.

27 Feb 2010

Outing with taki, dodo, sophie and sis!
we played a few games at mindcafe..
and it was great!

ahahahs, we seem to go to mindcafe everytime we meet up
and then head to spotlight after that.

first game we played was this hands game
(cant remember the name)
but we are supposed to do the hand actions according to the picture shown on the card.
hmms, we played that before with Jordan (MrEvil) at the Evil Club Chalet..

but anws,
it was hilarious.

Mishap 1:
we were so hyped that at one hand action..
taki knocked over 2 glasses of drinks!
hahahah!!
see! i m not the only clumsy klutz okay~

Mishap 2:
dodo was the judge for the first round.
she took FOREVER to figure out what was the right hand action
and who was right, who was wrong, and who was last.
(the last will get the card, and the person with the most cards loses the round)
ahahahha
her expression was priceless..

when the waiter came to clear up the mess,
she was silently practising!
cheaterbug..
pokes pokes!

so anyway...
we moved on to another english game..
where u could either 'say', 'charade' or draw
(based on the dice your throw)
and then describe out the adjective that you drew.

these are our 'chess piece'

left to right: Dodo, Sophie's Sis, Me! (i called that chess piece, AhSiao), Taki, Sophie

i finished that game first..
cos dodo is darn easy to figure out.
ahahah!

honestly, this game is quite tough.

for eg, given the word 'sleazy'
u gotta know the definition.. and the rest need to know what it means too!
and then, let's say u got to charade it out.
unless.. u r really daring?
ahahha

but amusing, nonetheless.

finished first.. took some pictures of them playing..
ahahah!
dodo was trying her best to show the word...

after the game...
we got really tired.
and dodo slumped down on the sofa..

so taki took the liberty to bury her under the pillows..
and i took the initiative to snap the non-existent dodo.

ALOOOHHAAAAA!! whr's dodoooooo..??

okay .. so that was that..
finally updated on my 3 days of fun...
ahahah..

a pout for u?

appalling wednesday!

2010-03-04T09:30:00.003+08:00

yesterday was just such a long day..

morning:
arranged for piano tuning session..
and the man came by at 9.40am?
and he couldnt tune my piano, because the strings were rusty
and servicing was required.
so.. the fees quoted became rather shocking.

i was told over the phone that the tuning was SGD150 for 2 tuning sessions
and the tuner guy said servicing, anti-dusting and oiling is needed.
which was priced at SGD250
and then i had 1 broken piano string,
which alone cost SGD150

basically.. from the $150 i prepared (took 90 from dad)..
now, the total sum is... 250 + 150 + 150 = SGD 550!!

=(

dad gave me his and reluctant look when i told him the total cost.

wells, sis said that i could look at it in a more positive light.
since oiling is rather important for a piano,
or else the strings will turn rusty and loosen out and thus 'break'
i was supposed to arrange for 2 sessions per year.

over the 6 years (i stopped tuning in 2004, because that was when i passed my grade 8)
and it would have amounted to 150 x 6 = SGD900

so technically, i saved some money??

So after the tuner guy left,
i went to post office to collect registered articles for myself and for my sis.
walked to the post office (15 min walk?) and stood outside.
Shit, i forgot my nric.
walked back home.. and walked out again.
lols.

the starhub modem was down.

had a hard time communicating with the technicians, because, they don't make sense.
in the end, i figured things out by myself.

which was....
my cable wire, which was supposed to be connected to the starhub box
was disconnected, and sitting prettily on the floor.

okay, maybe not prettily, but that was how i found it anyway.

maddening!!

whose itchy hands plucked them out?!

Afternoon:
couldnt sleep for the longest time,
and when i finally fell asleep
it was about time to get out..

so i had to rush through my shower and get out to teach tuition..
and in my haste,
i grabbed a tube of white acrylic paint
instead of my lipbalm.

lols.

heng i din put it on.
ahahahah

i noe i m darn clever.
my intelligence is appalling.

getting all blur and unfocused again..
because...
1. i have been working on the handicraft for long hours..
and it wears me out quickly.

2. i read alot. too much, maybe..
have been reading on the bus, on the escalator
at the bus stop..
anywhere and almost everywhere.
and i stay up to finish books too!
and i still wake up around 8..
ahahah!

3. my family is raging war..
and it irritates me to fight war.

4. money!!
yupps, i figured out that i should help by setting aside $150 for the piano tuning nonsense..
and that means...
half of what i earn this month.. is gone....

and it doesnt help that i only take half of my monthly allowance, cos it's holiday now.

and it doesnt help that i cant take on a proper job, cos of the tuition timeslot.

GROANS!!
okay.. time to prepare and leave house!

Busy Ole Me

2010-03-02T23:31:00.004+08:00

What i have been busy with..

just a sneak peek at my recent project.
here's the materials..:

placed them into a nice basket..

and i love this fabric.. the pattern is so nice..

and i painted this right till 2+..3am?

have been doing my mini handicraft project..
and i did my new blog layout..
hahahas

and i have a new student, living at yck.
hmms, teaching her from mon to fri..

and i teach 2 other piano students on sat..
and 1 tuition student on sun.

ahahahah so i m teaching everyday.

lols!

psst, i just came back from one of the blogs that i read..
i find a tagger's tags extremely amusing.

firstly, as a blogger, i am never compelled to put up any post.
yet, the tagger, shamelessly requested to have her edited pictures be posted up.
and after the pictures are posted up,
she had to ask for POSITIVE comments.
wouldnt take negative ones, i suppose?
because she already assumed the pitiful role,
where, her pictures are ugly, so they are not posted up
where, "nice" and "like" comments are not made..

lols.
that's pretty comical.
sounds so desperate.
tickled me happy for the night ;D

Okay, reading time!

Quick post

2010-03-02T00:30:00.003+08:00

just finished my new blog layout.
hmms..
not very satisfied with certain details..
but i m worn out.

so i shall continue maybe on another day..

ohs, and i still owe cheryl her qing tian wa wa..
din give to her on my birthday
that was donkey years ago!!
Sorry cheryl!
remind me okays?

and honey.. remind me on your package!

that's all.. getting sleepy.. goodnight!

10 weird things i do

2010-02-28T14:37:00.003+08:00

hmms, this is currently my facebook status:

we are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness, and call it, Love. ♥

got it from a blog that i m reading recently: http://hazelhearts.wordpress.com
go read it if you have time!
it's for light reading.
hahas..

anyways, here's something for you to do,
or if you r feeling bored and just wanna do this.

write down 10 weird things (in your opinion) that you do, and see if anybody does the same too!
(so... tell me if you do what i do. hahas!)

1. I insist on doing my own laundry
from washing, to hanging, to ironing, to folding and stacking.
i totally refuse to wash it with the family load.

2. I have random cravings.
was craving for strawberry cheesecakes a few weeks ago - have it satisfied
and now, i m craving for yam paste.

3. I must have my blanket with me when I sleep.
even if it's scorching hot, i must hold on to a tail of it, or else i can't fall asleep.
LOL!
and in the middle of the night, i might just kick it off my bed.

4. I laugh at the weirdest things.
for example, on friday, i met up with feli and cheryl.
after lunch, i was meddling with my Ricola sweets and the box flipped and did a pretty somersault out of my hands,
and fell prettily to the ground.

._.

i couldnt stop laughing for at least a minute.

and cheryl and feli gave me their trademark =.= look.
owells!

5. I have strange dreams.
i dreamt that my strawberry cheesecake got stolen
woke up properly upset.
and that's just one of the weird dreams i have.

6. I must have 2 layers of bedsheet.
the bottom layer doesnt matter, but the top must be pink.

7. i don't like to sit on a chair.
i prefer sitting on the floor...

8. i keep all my angpow packs.
meaning.. i take out the money, deposit them, and pile the empty packs properly.
then i keep them till the end of the year before tossing them away

9. I like to watch horror films
but if you know me well enough
i get scared easily.
i screamed when the dino popped up in Ice Age
and embarrassed feli and cheryl terribly. =X

so, i still don't understand why i pay money to scare myself.

10. i like to watch labixiaoxin when i m emo
lols
his retardedness never fails to cheer me up
when if i m crying
i can still laugh and cry
ahahhas
okay, that's awful.

ehhhs.. that's 10, but i have got 1 more.

11. i hate lifts.
hmms, i am prejudiced against lifts, especially old old lifts.
those jerky, noisy, small and dark lifts.
my imagination tends to run wild.. (very wild),
so i get upset if i have to stay in the lift for long.

okay that's it!!

tell me about the weird things that you do!

ohhs, before i end this post, let me end with this poem i got from her blog too:

Something About Her
Here I am, not knowing where I stand
Here I am, looking for a place to land
My heart in the palm of her hand
A boy dying to be her man
Between tomorrow and yesterday
what I really want to say
Is I’m falling for something about her
She is to me, the rainbow through the rain
She is to me, the laughter through the pain
She is living in my dreams
She is a vision in it seems
That I’m falling for something about her.

Written by Ryan Sutter to Trista Rehn, from the show The Bachelorette
taken from Nerds and Why They Attract

P/S, my handicraft and writing mood is back, so there will be frequent blog updates! ;D

Guys are Assholes

2010-02-26T22:44:00.004+08:00

before i head to bed...
read this!!

GUYS ARE ASSHOLES.
Guys are assholes.

If you argue with him, you’re hard-headed.
If you’re quiet, you don’t care.

If you call him, you’re too clingy crazy.
If he calls you, he says you should be happy.

If you don’t love him, he’ll try to win you.
When you do love him, he leaves.

If you don’t fuck him, you’re a tease.
If you do, you’re easy.

You tell him your problems, he says you’re irritating.
If you don’t, he says you don’t trust him.

If you lecture him, you just want to argue.
If he lectures you, it’s because he ‘cares.’

If you break a promise, he doesn’t trust you anymore.
If he breaks it, it’s because he had to.

If you cheat, he expects it to be over.
If he cheats, he wants another chance.

THEY’RE ALL BASICALLY THE SAME.

Guys drink to forget about girls;
girls drink to think back about the guy.

When guys are in love, they become poor;
when girls are in love, they become pretty.

Guys can forget, but can’t forgive;
girls can forgive, but can’t forget.

When guys are heart-broken, they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl;
when girls are heart-broken, they try to find his characteristics in another guy.

Guys wish to be her first love;
girls wish to be his last.

♥--♥--♥--♥--♥--♥--♥--♥--♥--♥--♥--♥--♥--♥--♥--♥--♥--♥--♥--♥--♥--♥--♥--♥--♥--♥--♥--♥

this has been around forever, but it's the first time i took time to read through it.
and probably nod in furious agreement.
got mine from:
Seoulite

updates tmr or on sunday.
had a great fun filled thurs, fri, and sat is gonna be totally fabulous too!

幸运草

2010-02-25T23:36:00.003+08:00

my current fav song!!
the chorus melody is just so catchy.
shall figure out the piano version!!

here's the lyrics:

曲目∶幸运草
歌手∶丁当
作词∶黄婷
作曲∶沈圣哲
编曲∶林迈可

艳阳天花园汗湿他的脸
纯真是我十七岁挂念那男孩
亮晃晃时间拉着青春跑
跑过了午睡醒后操场的喧闹

他找到四叶幸运草
他给我万分之一的缘份
多奇妙爱心形的微笑
在我掌心里轻轻飘

幸运草的夏天有他陪着我迷路
喜欢当时小小幸福就是爱情的全部
那天一阵烈日一阵大雨一整个下午
他的汗水渗进土里为我绽放心的礼物

他找到四叶幸运草
他给我万分之一的缘份
多奇妙爱心形的微笑
在我掌心里轻轻飘

幸运草的夏天有他陪着我迷路
喜欢当时小小幸福就是爱情的全部
那天一阵烈日一阵大雨一整个下午
他的汗水渗进土里为我绽放心的礼物

一转眼成长了散了
没结局的传说他记不记得

幸运草里藏着的诗早已经模糊
爱情却在每次泪干之后越来越清楚
直到书签破了花园拆了我也不再哭
才懂得了有个男孩曾经为我全心付出

updates when i m more energised!

The Adventures of FM Exam

2010-02-23T13:08:00.004+08:00

Edits:

just remembered i threw up before my fm paper
(honey rmb the time i disappeared to toilet for awhile?)
wells..
i m still feeling giddy and nauseous..!
and my head is super stuffy and my nose is runny.
i think i should remove the head.
and replace with another one..
hehes.

having a raging headache now..
can feel the world spinning when i was walking up the stairs just now.
ahahahs.
was amused by my ghastly face ;D

Weary Eyes
(nopes i m not that old, YET, but i do hope i will never look this old)

anw,
i wanna sleep lahhh!!!
but got ahbunehs on my rooftop
knocking and knocking.
pls lor.
ltr i wake up to a bright clear sky..
... and maybe some bird shit ...
cos they might have stolen my roof away from me?

damns.

shirley is such a clever girl today.
well, for the paper..
we are each given 3 pages of formulas and 4 pages of tvm tables.
midway through the paper,
i panicked.
Pg 1 of the table is MISSING!!!
and i need it to solve a question
(obviously, or else i won't panick)
so i raised my hand
and tried hard to get the invigilators attention
who, by the way, was sitting RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME.

she was reading some magazine from the school lib.

so, when she finally realised there's a snoopy girl waving at her
(i was wearing snoopy shirt)
she stood up, and slowly walked over
HELLOOOOOO!! EXAM TIME.. TIME VERY PRECIOUS U NOE?!

Time Travel

and anw, =)
shhh..
shirley explained that pg 1 was missing
and she flipped through..
yupps, it's missing.
only because...

it's printed at the back of the equation sheet.

alamak.

kudos to the clever girl.

hehes. continued doing the paper then!!

speaking of the seating arrangement.
i m damn upset.

how can you put me in front of the invigilator??

The Death of a Doodle
(this picture so aptly described my emotion then..no? xP)

i cannot sleep
i cannot doze off
i cannot draw angels

waliews.
so boring!!

the first time i zheng zheng jing jing de finish 1 exam paper.
=)
hehes, i m so proud of myself.
i attempted 90% of the paper okay!
the last 10% was unfinished sentences.
couldnt answer some theory qns.. so i basically crapped ;D
that's my forte~~

rewarded myself w my $1 delight - APPLE PIE.
YUMMMMS.

McDonald's Apple Pie

before i end off..
and check on my roof.
the last funny thing that i did...

there was this question on the price of the bond..
at inconstant growth..
and shirley calculated..
based on a formula for constant growth ...
=) and i got a whooping answer of...

*DRUMROLLS*

$-13!!!!

WUHAHAAHAHAH i m so pleased with myself.
this implies that the firm has to pay you $13 for every bond you buy..
almost as if the firm is begging you to take the bond.
:D
clever girl.

oh.. and i used logarithm to solve another question.
so...
what's the point of having formulas and tables..
when i can use log to solve questions!
sheesh!!
(pls mark me correct.. )

so i conclude..
Shirley is a clever girl today.

Lips
(gorgeous makeup! i spy pink braces.. ;D)

*smooches*!

FM Text - my new pillow.. NOT!

2010-02-22T10:07:00.003+08:00

wells, Shirley thought she was being extrememly clever by sleeping with her finance text under her pillow.
turns out that she couldnt fall asleep after 2 hours..
and damn.
her neck got very sore
and she had a raging headache.

SEE! Finance gives me a headache, anytime, EVERYTIME.
okay lahs..
i admit it's pretty retarded and really stupid
cos the text book is too thick.

so, it's proven true that the pillow height is very important to your sleep.
=)

and i have new new new pjs!
YIPPIES.

study study!

AWESOME cny with '02!

2010-02-18T20:20:00.006+08:00

Last day of fun and celebration for me!
haahas actually it was already an extended day of fun,
considering how majority had already headed back to school or to work.

since this happened to our study week
UNFORTUNATELY or fortunately,
we took the liberty to have a class cny gathering on 17 Feb
(ooo.. its a month after my birthday *grins*)

me and honey were super early that day!
i made her wait for some 20min in the crowded outram
SORRY HONEY!
but we managed to reach bukit batok at 1245.
wows.
we are meeting at 1pm
ahahhas

and and.. she was telling me that many were either
coming late, or not coming, or coming by themselves.
so i said..
what if.. only 2 of us turned up?
haahhas!
seb came along, but he woke up only when we were somewhere at queenstown.
doesnt matter, cos he lives at cck, only a few stations from bukit batok.

Sidetrack a little.
at 2am the previous night,
i was telling my fren.
"ohshyt. i forgot when and whr i m supposed to meet my fren."
he said
"..."
"not meeting early in the morn right"
me said
"yupps i think.. 1.30pm..
at... bukit...
timah?"

=X turns out its ALL WRONG!
1pm at bukit batok.
ohwells. =D

so we went early and met nawa and yy n vanna at the bus stop near her condo!!
the early us helped ourselves to drinks and food
and tried our best to pry open a jar of pineapple tarts.
which yy successfully did, with brute strength.
HAHAS! Strong babe! WHooots!

and the wii games came alooooong!
Band hero!

Vanna ranting
red- yellow-- red- yellow--
Da Duuuum Da Dum
ahahahs!

INSTRUCTOR KOH!

And now.. Nawa's Attempt at drumming!!
Darn cute. cos she will start ranting midway...
and watch the beats pass by..

Our Guitarist - Seb Tan
HAHAS! he did a good job! i cant coordinate the guitar manner...
will probably do it the guzheng format, as u will see later..

Lo and behold!
me at the drums!
(sidetrack. i realised i m getting fairer. THUMBS UP!)
erms.. if u overlook the part when i just started..
and the times yy snatched away my left drumstick
and left me handicapped for moments..
ahahhas
and how i cannot differentiate the blue from the yellow beats

i guess i fared pretty okay

... pretty okay ... at EASY. HAHAS!

Vocal - NAWAriah.
nopes, sayang, ur music is beyond me.
serious.
ahahahs! especially when u shout.
sheesh. its really loud ehhs

with more ppl arriving... LET THE BBQ BEGIN!!
(we forgot to take picture of Uncle Lai)

Not much pictures of the bbq session
cos i guess they were either busy bbqing or busy eating.
ahahhas!

and the weather started to turn really bad!
the umbrella-ed folks!

After eating to our fill
we packed up, and brought some food back for Mr Adrian and for Junteck.

and it's back to Wii and mj!
More of Wii actually.

cos all the mahjong folks and blackjack folks are not here
folks like.. owen-the-ahgong, eevon and joey are not here
and most that were present
either don't gamble, or dont know how to play.
me and honey belongs to both of the above.

and so.. the guys Wii-ed!
(actually the sentence sounds more like.. the guys wee-ed.)
lols!

oops. got caught w a mouthful of yummy cookies!
honey, u like really white here!
and u got caught w ur hand at cookie jar too!

wuahahs. Class photo taking here!

i like this picture beeeest!
*thumbs up*

ahhas really enjoyed that day
thanks soooooo much to:
Vanna - for opening up ur apartment and for booking the bbq pit
Vanna's Parents and bro - for not minding the din and for the angbao!
Nawa - for arranging and buying the food
Zhiyu - for meeting me, and helping me to get back my phone
(Yes i forgot my phone again, dropped it on Mr Adrian's car)
Mr Adrian - for coming by, despite ur predicament and for sending us back to toapayoh.
and to the photographers and the owners of the cameras for all the pictures of memories!
all others - for making this day a huge success!!
MUACKS i LOVE u all! (well, almost all, except for the person(s) who kept staring at my cleavage!! i shall bandage myself up sooon.)

ahahhas
w regards to my phone...
Mr Adrian was saying, while giving us a ride back to Toa Payoh,
"The owner of this car, shall not be held liable for any mishaps arising from the ride on his car. Passengers are advised to put on their seat belts at all times. He shall not be held liable for any properties or cash lost while in his car."

ahahahs and i said
"Mr Adrian, are u making disclaimers?!"

and guess what.

Drumrolls.

Shirley realised that she left her phone in his car
only when she was at the train station, at Serangoon.
WOWS!

ahahahahah
Made Honey contact Adrian, who commented that he now has a new phone

and it's so comical, how i said that he was making disclaimers.
LOLs!
anw i went back to school today to get back my phone.
hehes.

Shall stop scaring my honey
and tag it up on me or sth.
aikes.

ohwells, back to studying.

2010 Cny

2010-02-16T21:48:00.004+08:00

cny day 1 and day 2 arent very exciting..
did the usual visiting.
over at grandma house.. then dropped by a few aunts' house.
din have much opportunity playing w kids this year..
sulks

hahahas.
i just realised that i wore grey for consecutively 3 days.
my grey grey cny!

DAY 1:
grey spag top.

heng i wore that.
the early afternoon we spent at guang ming shan was maddeningly scorching hot.
even standing still reduces me to perspiration.

went to 求签！
relatively good.
hehes

DAY 2:

another grey top.. from hollyhoque.
kinda upset w their service..
cos they did write wrong address on honey's package, which was sent to my house.
then the postman took a pen and drew a big circle over the address.
=.=
and this time, they lost my package again..
so i opted for self pick up.
goodness. they took ages to find mine, and i realised that although they gave me a tag number, so as to simplify things, as they had intended..
they failed to label my item.
which was why they couldnt find mine.

shall consider before purchasing from them.
i prefer myglamourplace.

that aside.. 3rd day din really want to spend the day w my parents again.
so i went out w feli and cheryl
and we watched percy jackson and the lightning thief.

wuahahs. great movie!
i kinda like the plot very much
and the fast paced show..
no draggy shows for me!!

and i realised that i had been eating mac for 3 days.
day 1 : mac lunch
day 2 : mac dinner
day 3 : mac breakfast.

ahhaahah
btw, mccaffe mocha is yummy.
very niiiiceeee
i like the one at the drive thru one though..

maccentre... doesnt add enough caffeine in!
nonetheless, its.very.very.very.yuuuuummy!!
(and fattening too)

went to drink milktea from koi
its nice ehhhs!
i like how u can choose ur sugar level - 100%, 70% or 50%
and the amount - S, M, L
and the pearls are nice, small and chewy.
sweet talk gives me hard pearls at times..
total failure.

and we took neoprints!! ;D

havent taken for a long time ma..
boo said that its super old school
but i like ;D

single ones..

i like this one best!

come to think of it. i like all of them
ahahahhas

swore a bit =X cos i got no idea how to use that freaking machine la!
hahahaha but the eggy one is damn funny ;D
LOVE u 2!!

totally looking fwd to the class gathering ltr !
bbq bbq~~
yums!

Memoirs

2010-02-14T08:38:00.004+08:00

GONG HEI HUAT CAI~!

ahahhaahs...
happy happy happy new year
psst, i refused to say happy chinese new year
cos .. we dont say happy english new year on 1/1
that's so unfair.

anws.
hello dusty blog!

horrendous semester is ALMOST over,
and projects are certainly gone-ded-ded-ded

brought up the grouping issue to the class openly,
after private arrangements have been made.
not that i wanted to have it turn out so badly.
but honestly, could it have been different?

i am so freaking tired of watching out for your backs

and thank god for zhiyu, else i really dont know how to pull through this semester.

like i told yy
sometimes i just feel exasperated.
there are things to be done, yet i cant make u do.
we have to draw out a ft of instructions, yet you will only move that inch.

yes team work..
i admit i m not the best team member to be around with
i have a nasty temper and i m really goal-oriented.
but.. shouldnt i have the right to insist on a different group?

and don't forget we had a great time playing hide-and-seek with her
i got no idea how we can pull thru this , in this manner for fyp.

avoiding aint gonna solve the issue.
no matter how u attempt to pull the discussion backwards
the outcome is gg to be the same.
because other than us, others have PREFERRED to work with someone other than u...
it's only because we voiced out our true concerns.
but wows.
we have become invisible.

even better than some martial arts.

watever.

i m just sick of getting upset at the work we produce
not meeting our bare minimum expectations
and not because we havent put in our best
only because we get worn out too quickly
and we are just simply goddamn tired.

before you cry, before you lose your temper, before you complain
think about who corrected your whole content, rephrased your sentence, did grammar corrections for u.
think about who made it possible for you to miss a day of school,
to study for tests,
think about who made it possible for you to meet all of your other commitments
think about who made it easy for you to sleep at night
while all i can do is to count the number of hours i m ALLOWED to sleep
just to meet the deadline.

i m not anymore noble than anyone here

i have found the hindrance to my performance
and i have stopped it
have you?

tired.

really tired.

i want us back as friends..
as soulmates
and the only way is to reduce the conflict that will only arise when we work tgt
can u understand that
can we still laugh, read, crap, lunch, shop together?

that's my new year wish this year..

happy new year everyone~

(psst, the pictures werent taken for this purpose. but i havent have the mood to write in a happy mood, and i do so want to have the pictures posted up.)

2010-02-10T04:49:00.001+08:00

well, basically the reason why i m here when i m supposed to be
either
1) ~~Sleeping~~
2) writing rm report
3) reading up on pncm
4) studying uccd
5) SLEEPING!!

okay i really want to sleep.
brain malfunctioning.
got kinda stuck reading honey's report.
dunno how to continue from there..

sheesh!

2010-02-02T10:41:00.003+08:00

Gonna have a really busy 2 weeks.
esp next week..
ready get concussed.
*sulks*

finally finished my gems project.
and a very costly one too.
the spray mount glue itself is $16, the board $4.
and the printing is like $1?
lols..
all for the sake of a module that isnt even counted into GPA.

ROARS!

and the tutor is such a stick (a very shitty stick) in the mud.
he really should get his ass back to RP and stop his fking crap in SP.
one of the tutors on my top hate list.

Gems submission:

Mummy liked it.

the torn picture isnt her.
and she was upset.

said i should have taken her picture instead..
and done it with her story
and show it to dad.

owells.
war zone again.
bomb shelter?

that aside..
just got news that family issues were the reason for her absence and avoidance.
honestly.. every family, every person, has their own issue and story to tell.
having major issue at home doesnt make u any more exceptional.

i like to think that it's a chance to be brave and strong
and to be really matured.
it's time for perspective to change from 'mememe' to 'us'.

anw, the above submission is a montage of the following pictures:

Dictionary

Old photo 1

Old photo 2

the back of a really old buddhist scripture

not satisfied with the turnout..
the torn edges seemed a little too fake
(okay it's fake)

ohwells.
it's submitted anw. so that's one workload off my mind..

should list out my to-dos:

~~wash, dry and iron all new year clothes..~~
almost done.. left 1 piece that's not yet delivered.
~~Call SPH for the non-delivery of newspapers~~
Type yesterday's meeting minutes
Do journal for trgd
Do my part for trgd
Clear the locker.. Brought back 15kg worth of books and lappy.
okay i noe i abit bo liao to weigh..
Retrieve my book reservations
Call and book for piano tuning!!
Clear my crazily messy desk
Study for HRIS
Study for UCCD
Finish FM tutorials..!!!

Next week not so Exciting activities??:
Monday: TRGD (report and presentation), HRIS Lab test
Tuesday: - (study UCCD!)
Wednesday: PNCM Negotiation CA
Thursday: RM Report
Friday: Uccd CA

Splendid.
Almost evenly spread out..

Sometimes, i think teachers forget that students are afterall, human.
and very human too.

Done editing this:

2010-01-31T11:04:00.002+08:00

found this song last afternoon.. and boy oh boy,
i m totally in love with it!

managed to get the sheet music for it..
and just tried on my broken piano.

the piece is so awesome!
total hearts for it
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

and i listened to the song to sleep last night.
ahahhas i know i m nutty..
but i always love great piano pieces!

so i sent a proper email to her..
and a sms to ask for a reply.
her reply was.
kkkk

=.=

he's right.
i m feeling totally vexed and unjustified.

it's not that we are not putting enough effort into maintaining the group
nor submitting quality work
but there's just so much we can do
and there's just simply too much to do.
with lesser manpower,
honestly, it's wearing us out way too quickly.

i really think we have been really nice and patient.
but when it comes to the bottom line..

mine is..
i can give in
but not when u treat me like an idiot.
i can be nice, but i m not stupid.

so quit playing games with me.

2010-01-29T23:09:00.005+08:00

Went for swensons treat last week?
ahahhas, i cant remember when too..
honey, von.. any idea?
15 jan. WAHHHS.. so long ago =X

time passes so fast when u are busy..

anw, went on a total shopping spree...
and got 4 items online, my contacts (FINALLY~), and new wedges.
ahahahs.

as our food republic vouchers are gonna expire..
went to vivo to lunch today.
skipping breakfast was a good idea..
cos my dear honey is anti-veggie as usual.

ate 3 types of veggie in a meal.. that whole plate of xiaobaichye (minus 1 piece, eaten by honey)
cucumber and lettuce...
and she was coughing.. so couldnt take too much chicken either.
should have ordered roast duck instead!
ahahahs

And we still had $10 vouchers left.. so we had dessert.
honey dew sago.. and mango pomelo

hmms..
turns out the desserts are very disappointing.
the honeydew is soooo hard!!!
we decided that the dessert stall had collaborated with the fruits stall..
and the fruits stall left the bottom part of the honeydew for the dessert stall.
thus, all the honeydew cubes were hard like rocks.
._.

and honey's mango pomelo was souuuuurrrr....
was talking to her about sth.. when her facial expression suddenly became like this:

stunned me for a moment.
lols.
turns out she bit down on a sour piece of mango + pomelo together..

i finally got the meetoo pencil case i wanted to get..
and at a good price too!
50% discount!
mine was at $5, and honey's at $4.. her's got a slight defect.. but that pink is a nice shade.

rabbit sisters~♥

hehes.. i like mine..
it's wearing an overall.. with a striped shirt. so cute!
♥ ♥ ♥

okayyys.. had a crazy week..
and crazier ones coming up.
shall get to sleep and can head down to feli's house tmr!
yippie....

2010-01-24T10:56:00.006+08:00

lols, i guess i am one of those slow bloggers..
that blog about their birthdays only 1 week later.

madness in the whole week.. shall rant about this later.

anw..
17Jan was the picnic day aka the 21st birthday of yours truly.
as i began the first day of my 22nd year of life,
i did the following crazy things:

Number 1
worked through the night to make qingtianwawa for my dear friends..
(see the pictures below)
and in my blur and sleepy state,
i actually wrote on the card to dodo..
Thanks for coming to my 31st birthday.

oops! i m only 21, not yet 31.. =X

Number 2
the next morning..
stayed in bed for half an hour after i woke up
and poor mummy had to prepare all the picnic food by herself
SORRY MUM!
i helped by making myself scarce from the kitchen.

Number 3
rushed out of the house in the following state:
- wet hair unbrushed
- belt not yet on
- nails not done
- one eye with eyeliner, one eye without.

LOLS!! okay i know i m very horrible,
and i shall resolve to be less horrible okays?
=X

let's start w the pictures..

A bag of qingtianwawa for the dear babes that came for my picnic
thanks for coming to share this special day with me!
and for all the joy, care, and support you babes have shown me over the months, years~

A big big smiley for each and everyone of you
because you babes worth more than any smile could bring

A picnic basket bag for a picnic! hehes.
i love the pinkness!
sis got it for me.. in early 2009 i think.

Dropped by at dad's construction site..
cos we reached bedok really early..
and mum helped to sew on the wings of the wawa
apparently, i did a terrible job and the wings will drop off
if it is manhandled.
=X

and dad got us icecreams! MAGNUM IS LOVED.
i love dark choc icecream..
the icecream is mad expensive.
$4.20 per stick at Shell...
and he said, he got the same icecream at RM 3 in msia Shell.
lols..

and we had kiteflying!!
Honey helped us to buy kites.. THANKS HONEY!!
that's our 赏封宝剑 up there in the kites.
as expressed by eevon..
cos when its folded up, it will protude out of our bags,
just like how a good ole 赏封宝剑 should behave.
xP

Over dinner, we ate at bedok S99..
dun like the drinks counter lady..
she very blur lor.. i repeated my order like 3 times.
shouldnt they have better memory than i do?
tsk.

some funny rubbery dish. i think its supposed to be abalone.

crabby toufu..
i like i likeeeee

and cereal prawns!! LOVES ♥♥

there were 2 other crab dishes..
buttercrab (which we had to bring back.. too full!)
and crab beehoon..
super full..

and honey and babes got me CUPCAKES for my birthday cakes!
OMGOMG..
they are DARN cute pls..
look at all the hello kitty!
and the pinkness
and the sweetness
and the darn cute cupcakes.

okay pardon my stiff expression
seriously tired..
forgot how to smile ><
hehes, i like the "shirley" cupcake..
and the cupcake that's directly ontop of mine.
so pretty!

loves every bit of my birthday..
thanks babes!!

when i reached home..
cant wait to open all my presents..

From Feli and Cheryl.
they wrapped in this hellokitty hang on wall thingy
and the hello kitty apron
and 2 love notes..
into the back of a canvas.

and they assumed that their 'laolei' wont know their trick.
PLS LOR!
i so clever lehs.
psk.

so pretty~~
angbao from mummy and feli mummy!
I m pleasantly surprised that i got angbao from her too .. o.o
and very grateful to her..
thanks auntie!! ♥

present from elaine wifey that i faithfully kept on my bedside,
unopened till 17jan
actually i din bear to open..
cos the wrappings are so cute!

my dear wifey went to print out the picture..
and coloured them herself!
so sweet rights?
(NO YOU CANT HAVE HER. SHE's MINE MINE~~)

and inside the box,
is a jarful of stars..

wifey, together with all my pretty girls..
are the shiny stars in the dark sky, leading me out of darkness
and accompanying me always ♥

aahahahas PINK FOREVER FRIENDS BEARRRR from dodo~
it's sleeping with me now, every night.
hehes..

psst, the clothes can take off one!
so i can make other season clothes for her..
else.. everyday wear winter wear..
very hot de leh!

a handmade scrap book just for meeee
dunwan show u all the contents..
its very pretty

anw,
i really love my birthday..
the best i ever had..

many thanks to..
1. mummy and daddy..
for bring me to earth, and for bringing me up
and althought we have conflicts from time to time
thanks for giving in to me

2. my siblings..
for giving in to me
and for doting on me

3. to cheryl and feli
for being friends all these while..
6 years + and counting still!

4. Eevon, Zhiyu and Joey
for making campus life bearable
for making projects do-able
and for making poly life enjoyable!

4. Dodo, Taki, and Elaine
for standing by me, both in game and in real..
few of the best friends i can ever expect from a game..
thanks loads girls!

Anw, about my mad week..
din sleep much for the whole week..
2~3 hours per night.
else, no sleep the whole night.
got totally cranky on thursday and friday.
=X

and on friday, touhuay became my motivation.
ahahhas!

so anw,
i got myself an amazing project mate,
that plays hide-and-seek with me.
how awesome.
for details, ask me xP

jiayou shirley!

i can feel the holiday coming..

偶尔，也想有你的认同

2010-01-08T21:39:00.003+08:00

偶爾
主唱:張韶涵
我們都曾經失去愛情從你的身上我認識刻骨銘心錯過的花季我的心也糾結成冰
我們都曾經非常努力卻常常的嘆息常常有了疑問句所以我離去
偶爾很清醒偶爾卻抗拒偶爾有睡意偶爾很傷心

當我們反覆練習想讓愛歸零但無能為力
偶爾很開心偶爾卻下雨偶爾有夢境偶爾很想你
當我們同時安靜也做了決定卻不要再見你

我們都曾經失去愛情從你的身上我認識刻骨銘心錯過的花季我的心也糾結成冰
我們都曾經非常努力卻常常的嘆息常常有了疑問句所以我離去
偶爾很清醒偶爾卻抗拒偶爾有睡意偶爾很傷心

當我們反覆練習想讓愛歸零但無能為力
偶爾很開心偶爾卻下雨偶爾有夢境偶爾很想你
當我們同時安靜也做了決定卻不要再見你

偶爾很清醒偶爾卻抗拒偶爾有睡意偶爾很傷心
當我們反覆練習想讓愛歸零但無能為力

偶爾很開心偶爾卻下雨偶爾有夢境偶爾很想你
當我們安靜也做了決定卻不要再見你

my current fav song..
its on replay~

因为我的任性，让你心疼。
因为我的倔强，让你落泪。
因为我的失败，让你灰心。

那个带不给你快乐的孩子。
那个无法让你骄傲的孩子。

2010-01-06T23:16:00.004+08:00

Some old pics that i wanted to get out of sis' cammie.
ahahhas.
had a major cleanup over last break,
and yes i really need to put the word 'TIDY' into my yearly resolutions.
lols

(somehow, after i post up this pics.. i have this feeling that i will stay single FOREVER!)
ahahahhas.

okay this is my horrendous desk.
typical warzone.
and honestly =X
(i know its scary!)

and i piled stuffs onto my piano top too.
one of the advantages of having a mini grand as ur piano,
~~means u have bigger surface area to pile things up on.~~
i mean, it gives better sound and touch too.

and i threw out this amount of clothes..
clothes i din wear for YEARS
all the way back when i was in..
PRIMARY SCHOOL?
omg.. pls dun slap me ..

at least my wardrobe isnt exploding anymore.

actually, i have another confession.
my wardrobe is the neatest area of mine.
cos i m obssessed over washing and drying my own clothes, and then stacking them up.
and it pleases me when i see a full wardrobe
although i only wear .. 10 % of what is in there..
but that's totally beside the point ~

this is the xmas present i got for dodo and delvin
dodo loves pooh bear, so that bear is for her..
and delvin gets eeyore

well, i know this doesnt sound very clever...
but..
after i got the soft toys, and i read the tag.
it says.. 3 YEARS AND UP.

oopsydaisy.
delvin is just 5-going-6 months old.
sorry darling.. let ur mummy put that away first okay?
muacks.

and at the chalet,
dodo babe really treated pooh as her baby..
kept petting him to sleep...

on the 2nd night, she was contemplating if she should bathe..
so i hugged pooh, and whispered loudly..
"pooh baby, u look at ur mummy (dodo)! she doesn't want to bathe..
and that will STINK.
and i mean its okay to not bathe, but u see.. if she hugs u..
that wouldn't be very nice, aites?"
and i went on like this,
till dodo gave me her sulky face and ignored me.

hahahahas !!
i swear she's the sweetest babe i ever knew online.

okays. this is her pooh bear looking at me do projects.. =)

Sometimes i m really amazed with dodo.
she has one of the best tempers i ever know..
and its darn cute when she secretly makes a face at ppl she doesnt like!
ahahahs.
high emotional stability!
(as compared to mine, which is ultra LOOOOOOW)

thanks babe, for putting up w my horrendous temper.
i know how bad tempered i m.
sorry!
and for resolving conflicts..
u will make a good negotiator!

so i turned out all my pencil cases, and threw in all my pens/markers/pencils/staples/etcetc into a plastic box..
and oops.
i might have too many pens.
*might*

(what... a girl is entitled to have colours in her notes wat...)

and speaking of notes..
i have been dozing off, regularly, for every single lecture!
horrible.

these are some of my xmas presents..
love them all!

okay... this term is really gonna be a hectic term.
how hectic it will be?

this week is week 12 on the school calendar..
Week 13: 2 reports due (14, 15 Jan)
my picnic on 17 Jan
Week 14: 1 presentation, 1 report ( 21, 22 Jan)
Week 15: 1 presentation, 1 CA (26 Jan)
Week 16: ~~None YET...~~ Gems project (2 Feb)
Week 17: 1 report + presentation, 1 CA10 (9, 10 Feb)
Week 18: it says CNY on my calendar, but it says STUDY WEEK on the school calendar.
how wonderful.
Week 19 - 20: End of Year 2 Exams.

and in between, i have 1 more CA that isn't on my calendar yet.

yes i m very busy.
on top of that.. there's tuition and piano to teach.
and there's loads of meetings
and loads of research.

so if u have nothing better to do,
pls help me...
moral support is good enough xD
or coffee would be great too..

though i would really rather prefer to flop back on my bed.

ciaos~
and all the best to my groupmates, classmates and my dear friends..

Edited:
Week 16 is taken too!
bloodyhell.

mum just came back w dad..
and she asked..
"whr u go every morning ah? so early!"
erm..
mum.. i went to school.
school start le.
like erm.. 3 days.
._.

2010-01-04T14:05:00.003+08:00

My 2009 din end up with a blast..
okay it did.
a blast of anger.

indeed i wrote one of my previous posts in a fit of anger
but what was more appalling was the 'tell-tale' who tried to drive a wedge between people.
as for that bitch, honestly, dont think so highly of urself
w8 till i find out who u are..
=)

madly in love with the pink items in petville..
and of course i m glad that petville came up w pink items!!!

then i eyed this pink cabinet.. and wanted to buy it!!
but after my purchase, i just couldnt find the item in my inventory...
CHEAT MY MONEY SIA!!!
i mean, game money. =)

and this morning, when i was telling honey about it..
i realised...
.............
i got 4 units of those cabinets in my inventory
=X

lols!
muahahahah
loving my pink kitchen.
muacksmuacks
*flying kiss*

oh i got a shock when i saw 15 emails in my mail box this morning:

=.=
i dont play tagged.com anymore
and is there a need to send so many invites?
and is there a need to send so many reminders?
if i want to add, i would have added on the FIRST invite.
pls.

gosh.

2010-01-02T09:42:00.003+08:00

yeaps i have a temper..
and a pretty bad one too.
hahas was chatting w jedd last night.
and honestly, had i wanted to be really mean,
i would have done so in Oct.

so anyway, since that was what happened in 2009,
and so .. let it stay there?

hmms i cant exactly remember my 2009 resolutions, but let's think about 2010's!

*wanted to list them down.. but i guess if i can complete this.. i rule:*

STOP BEING A PROCRASTINATOR!!
hahahahas
and stop being silly.

yest, kyo requested for a song from ice.

Kyo: Can i Request for a song?
Ice: yupp sure.
Kyo: Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence
Ice: =.=
Kyo: 120bpm
Tuzi: OMG OMG how did u noe his name?!

game starts..
bottom right corner of screen states..
120bpm: Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence.

oops.
Ice's name aint lawrence..
just that .. that's the song name.
goshhhh.

yupps. so, the non-procrastinator-wannabe shall go type her reports
before she dies of guilt.

tatas!

2009-12-30T23:54:00.002+08:00

oh great.
there wont be another of these sort of outings

i m soooo FUCKING pissed off with them.
HELL. i dont even create that much a mess at home
and i dont even do this much housework at home.

and honestly,
u really think bbq is just the word.. BARBECUE???
and then u sit there..
and w8 for the food to drop from the sky
the charcoal and everything to drop from the sky

u wan smoke, i nvr say cannot.
but can u OPEN the door, step outside, smoke outside, throw outside?!
must u put it in a cup of water..
and leave it there like tt..
and TWICE TOOO?!?!

lols.

all the junk n litter u n ur frens leave around
(SORRY THEY ARE NOT MY FRIENDS.)
u really think there will be auntie to come in n help u clear har?
or u think.. the litter will miraculously evaporate??

and fuck.
u must smoke in the room now right?
u just fucking cant stop smoking right?
without any fucking concern just because u think that room is assigned to u
and u fucking have all the rights to do anything u want?

u noe wat?
i m fucking tired of all ur crap
its all about u, ur thinking..
and everything u do, u think its right.
every wrong decision that YOU make, u just push it to others.

good luck to u.

my busy week..

2009-12-26T09:37:00.002+08:00

got quite abit of things to do from now till school reopens..
let me list them out, so that i can remind myself =X

Tidy up areas (to be finished by tonight/tmr night):
~~Wardrobe~~
Desk
Piano area
Shelves
Storage boxes

(nope the list may look simple, but my things are just so cluttered!)

Projects:
UCCD - loads of reading up!!
*oops, i removed the binding from my notes, so i better place them back asap!
PNCM - more reading n background research
HRIS - to be done at chalet
TRGD - my part is done, i think.. o.o

sheesh.
my loaned book list is soooooo freaking long.
better write it down somewhere
and remember to have them returned.

Saturday:
` teaching piano
` tidy desk
` alvin n chipmunks
` tidy desk
` tidy storage boxes

Sunday:
` tidy shelves
` finish up clearing my room

Monday:
` Read finish UCCD
` start on writing my stuffs

Tuesday:
` Chalet!
` Read UCCD

Wednesday:
` Chalet!
` HRIS meeting w honey

Thursday:
` Check out chalet
` UCCD + HRIS

Friday:
` sleep sleep sleep.

lols, i cant think of the rest yet...
so... tatas!